Thursday, December 30, 2004

Boy are these crazy days!!! I am hanging on but man I can't wait for it to be over.

My friends from NY are flying in tomorrow morning and I am so excited for them to be in California!! What a great time we are going to have.

I am so excited for Saturday to come. To have all my friends from all over in one place is really gonna be great!! Not to mention the amazing time dancing we are gonna have.

I wonder how it will all turn spend months and months planning this one day!! I am excited to head to Jamaica as well. I can't wait to see the land and the people. I am really looking forward to it.

Pray that nothing lights on fire at the reception....the centerpieces we made, can't be fully trusted!!

Well.....the countdown basically starts here.
Maybe I will find more time to blog after this shindig goes down.....not promising anything but we'll see.

Happy New Year everyone!!!

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Merry Christmas to all.................and to all a good night!!

Friday, December 17, 2004

Jonathan "Nathan" Edward Shaffer was born yesterday at 5:00pm.
Erin and Jono are doing well. Labor was LONG for Erin but she pushed on through.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004


Oh man, I simply can not wait. Last night I could barely sleep cause I was just getting so excited!!!
I think the actual wedding day is gonna be a blast. I can't wait to boogie down with some of my favorite friends. It's gonna be quite a shin-dig!!

I am very excited. Lots of details left to work on, and yet they all seem so small and insignificant compared to what that day actually represents.

So, yeah I am really excited!!

Friday, December 03, 2004

Today I miss people:

I miss Rebecca and Jeff, Heather and Nathaniel (and Sebastian), Christine and Adam (and Gunnar and Chloe), Susan and Jason (and Luke), Sarah and Ray (and Jaden), Michelle and Charles (Jackson and new Brady!!), and Jay Reitz.

I miss Ryan Pappan, Bill Sperry and Jono and Erin Shaffer.

I miss Justin cause I am home from work and he still has two hours till he gets home.

It is interesting how at different points in ones life the people who they spend a lot of time with changes. I feel very thankful to have all the following folks as friends. I wish they were closer. Each of these people have sought to live their lives with integrity, which I admire and respect. I see that they are people who consistently desire growth and change in their lives. Boy, I just feel glad I know them.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Last Thursday Night Dani, our college pastor TORE IT UP!! I thought that her lesson was amazing!! It was the best I've sat under in a long time (besides of coarse my beloved, Alistair Begg).

That night really got me thinking....mostly about how can I tell that the Holy Spirit lives in me? What are the markers, and can I see them in my life? In what ways could someone tell that I am "different" from the world? Oh how this question has been challenging me.

Every morning this last week on my drive to work I have been trying to think of these things, areas of my life that I feel the Holy Spirit's movement in or areas that I know that are in my life, reactions, comments, impatience, advice I would give, that are very much spiritless and not light for those around me. Identifing these things and then offering them in prayer through out the week has been really cool for me.

I press on toward the goal, my friends!!!
It is not out of sight, and yet running alone it is beyond my reach!!
Holy Spirit come like a rushing wind.

Friday, November 19, 2004

I spoke with a lady today at work who recently adopted a little girl from Olive Crest and they moved up to Washington State.
They are living in what is called cohousing. I find this living situation absolutely fascinating and intriguing.

Check out their website for more information...

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Andrew, It's great that you like to identify the churches issues but you affect change by exemplifying it, my friend. I did not see you handle yourself as a broken, humble, willing to be open person when conflict faced you. I saw you get angry, point blame, hold grudges, not forgive, not listen and pout.

I believe that being a part of a church body, means you MUST be open to being sharpened. You entrust yourself to those around you to sharpen you because they love and care about you deeply. You MUST hear when people are telling you what they see in your life, the good, the bad and the ugly. Yes, we are ALL sinners, working out the salvation that has been offered to us. That salvation is offered to us all, whores, homosexuals, drunkards, pornographer, liars, and thieves. I do not think that excuses us to continue living in sin. I think God calls us out of that life and uses the people around us to do so.

If you are open to that kind of intimacy with people then you can certainly find it within the church. It is not all pomp and circumstance, but you do have to search for that kind of accountability. I would say that I have at least 5 people that I have an intimate, vulnerable relationship with from our church. Who love me, accept me, and help me to mature, grow, change, and sometimes brutally tell me the truth about myself, when I can't see it.

I read an awesome book called The Emotional Healthy Church ( I think I gave you a copy) that spoke a lot about the concerns that you have voiced. This book has really has challenged me and excited me to be apart of an emotional healthy church. And really, it starts with me. Am I emotionally healthy??

You affect change by exemplifying it!

Friday, November 12, 2004

"With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be." James 3:9-10

so......I wonder how seriously we should take this?

Friday, November 05, 2004

So, for my job, Olive Crest Foster Family Agency, I need to come up with three slogans for the Month of March.
Got any ideas?? I know you guys will make many jokes but please write at least one serious one so I can borrow it for my meeting.
I am counting on your wittiness and intelligence to come through for me!!!

Monday, November 01, 2004

I love it when someone you know goes on and on about being "friends" with someone who is quasi famous and then when you sit and chat with the same quasi famous person they have NO IDEA who that other person is.
Then the person who thought they were "friends" with the quasi famous person has no idea that you know that the quasi famous person has NO IDEA who they are and you just kinda laugh next time the person talks about the quasi famous person they are "friends" with.

I think that is really funny. HAHAHAHA

So, here is my thought for today..........what will the world do if George Bush wins the election??
Like it seems like most of the world is against George Bush having another four years....what if it happens.
What will you guys do who really really hate him??

I guess I never thought about the after the election much??

Let me know, I am interested?

Friday, October 29, 2004

Justin is so very thoughful.
I have been having a rough couple of days.
And today at work I received the MOST BEAUTIFUL bouquet of sunflowers. Fire Sunflowers and regular sunflowers.
They smell amazing.
And they were sent to brighten my day!!

The flowers are beautiful but I am most touched by the thoughtfullness of Mr. Justin.

It is nice to feel this way. I am thankful!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

i just finished reading Jane Erye. I really liked it. I loved how it left you hanging right up until the end. I like Jane, I want to speak more like her.

Well, we offically sent out our invitations. This is really exciting!! And if one more freaking person tells me, "boy, do you think you sent them out early? YOU ARE SUPPOSED to send them out about a month before." I say to these people.........WHO FREAKING CARES when I send them out. I could send them out 5 months before if I liked. I understand the reasoning, you don't want people to "forget" about your wedding. Listen, if someone is gonna forget my wedding fine by me. We wanted to send them before the holiday and so that our many out of town guests will have time to make arrangements. Geeez, now leave me alone already!!!!

I was stuck in 3 hours of traffic today trying to get home from Orange County. Boy was that annoying. I do like the rain though. I love how it smells!!

I am really sad that I missed Gomez the last time they were here in the states. I was listening to them today, and I just love Bens voice. I think I should get their new album, I have waited long enough.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Monday is here.

I had the best weekend in a long time.

Justin and I bought a bed, new mattresses, and a 7 drawer chest (thanks to his grandparents). I am in love with the set!! I really like it. I am so excited.
Justin moves in this Saturday and then a little less than 3 months till I move in!!! I can not wait.

We also decided on our centerpieces. Justin and I spent at least 2 hours in Joann's Fabric and it was a blast. We laughed and just had so much fun.
I really have a lot of fun when I am with Justin. One of my favorite things about him is his face when he is really cracking up!! He closes one eye like a pirate and his mouth gets really big. It is so funny!

Saturday Night we trekked to Azusa and saw Joy Electric. Always a great show!!!

Sunday Morning was church and then we had Sunday Night Supper with the Lofgrens, which is always note worthy. Last night was our turn and we made Mexican Pizzas (justin created this years ago all by himself), they were yummy.

The best part of the whole weekend was that I got to spend it with Justin. Now that we are both working Full Time it has become hard to see each other during the week. So, it's all about the weekends. One thing that is cool is that Justin misses me during the week as much as I miss him. And that is always nice!

So yeah, this weekend was fun times with that Justin Souza!

Friday, October 08, 2004

Ahhhh, it's Friday. I am looking forward to this weekend.

On Saturday, Justin and I going out to buy a bed. Neither of us have a queen bed so, his grandparents gave us a gift and told us to go find a bed. It is really exciting.

We found a place to live as well. Justin is actually moving in on the 16th and going to be living there for 3 months all by himself. I think that he is going to get really lonely. He comes from such a large family and he has always had a ton of roomates, so I think this time for him is gonna be hard, but we'll see it may turn out to be a great time for him.

I have already started having wedding dreams. It's weird but I actually have gotten some ideas for the wedding at 5:00am in a dream. Well it was actually like half dream state and half being awake. Anyways, yeah it's been pretty cool.

I think Politics make me laugh.Everyone thinks they know everything about everyone. I don't think ANYONE knows George Bush and I don't think ANYONE knows John Kerry.All I hear is judgement, on everyones part. It doesn't sit right with me.

I feel like I have worked really hard to find out what I think about the upcoming elections. What I think about issues and working with the guy who "appears" to be working in the same direction. I say "appears" because I don't think I can fully know what the truth is. Everyone has an agenda. Everyone wants to PUT DOWN the other person, and honestly that turns me off!! People who are hell bent on shoving the other guys face in the mud. I am simply not down for that.

I will vote on November 2nd because there were a ton of folks who fought and died to give me the right to have a say.But I refuse to say nasty things about people because I think I know what the truth is. It's ridiculous to me.

It sure seems like a lot of people get cancer. Man, I don't want to get cancer.

Friday, October 01, 2004

Just when you thought it was over for sure...................TA DA!!
I know, I know it's been awhile but seriously folks it's been crazy.

Okay, my hair is grown out pretty long, it's startin' to really bug me but I gotta keep it long for the wedding, so someone can do something with it. After the wedding I am cutting it short again, probably some funky hair doo that makes me look 10 years younger!

Justin got a job!!! HIP HIP HOORAY!!! He is working for the Recording Academy (aka the GRAMMY's, you know the big awards show) but in the non-profit section. He is officially the Project Manager for the Education Programs. Which I think means that he takes care of sending out the Grammy bands to different schools to educate on music and stuff. Tight right? So far he likes it. It is in Santa Monica, so right now he has quite a commute. We are looking for a place right now that will cut his time to work in half........we'll see what happens.

I am loving my job although I really hate it when people do not call you back or email you back. I mean at least have the courtesy to call me back and say, Na we are not interested. JEEZ people!

Justins brother and sister-in-law had their baby girl. Her name is Eirlin Enid Souza. I really like it. She was 7lbs and she is totally cute. She is actually quite unique looking. Her mom is Scottish and her dad is Portuguese, which makes for a killer looking baby.

My friend Ryan is in Africa for a year. I got a postcard from him. Sometimes I will be driving and I will, I am driving and Ryan is in Africa. Jealous!

Next year is my ten year high school reunion. Boy, won't that be hilarious! good lord!

I am reading Jane Eyre right now.

I have been listening to these sermons by Alistar Begg. Man, he is an amazing preacher. (

Um, what else. I did this Power Yoga class on Tuesday Night and seriously my abs are still sore today.

In other news, I do believe it's been over 2 weeks since I ate my last veggetable. Seriously!

Okay, well there you have it. A post.

Catchya later.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004


I was looking at our Target regisitry and guess what!!!!

Our first items was purchased, our very first PLUNGER!!!

YEE-HAW!!! Man, our friends really know us.

SO, to whoever was kind enough to buy this plunger, I thank you. You made my day!!

Monday, July 26, 2004

so, i am not a very political person.
Probably because I don't believe ANYBODY.

But today I felt angry when I turned on the news and saw people with dolls mocking people, and being out right rude and mean when speaking about people.

That makes me furious. Whether it is coming from George W. Bush or John Kerry, it disgusts me! This world makes me so mad.

It seems as though politics these days is nothing more than a whose better than who contest. And why I should hate so and so.

Grow up people.
You piss me off!

Friday, July 16, 2004

so, here's all the states I have visited.
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July.
I was in Reedley lighting off LEGAL fireworks!!
It was really fun!!

So, I got a new job!!!!!! Praise the Lord.
I couldn't be more excited about it.
I will be working with Olive Crest as a Foster/Adopt Family Cerification Coordinator, which means that I will be recruiting, training, interviewing, supervising families to become foster families. Doesn't that just fit!!I am really excited, I start on July 13th. Pray for me. I am also a bit nervous. It will be full time, Mon-Friday and I have to sorta dress nice, which is a tad strange for me.
This also means that my ministry at the church is coming to a close, well at least my paid ministry. This Wednesday is my last SURGE for awhile, oh how sad that will be!!! Today the staff is taking me to Macaroni Grill for my farewell lunch. YUMMY!!
Justin brought me a single sunflower and a wonderful note letting me know how proud he is of me and my work here. That felt real nice!!

This weekend Justin and I got a lot of planning done for the wedding. I bought my dress. It is so lovely I like it so much!! And we registered. Registering wasn't nearly as painful as I had anticipated, although I can say I never have thought more about dishes, cups, bedding and utensils. We finally decided to register at Bed, Bath and Beyond, Target, Macys and Gottschalks. We had to register at Gottschalks because most of Justins family and friends are from Central California and Gottschalks is real popular up there. So, yeah, thats that.

Um, what else......
Thats it really.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

wow has a lot changed in the past 2 weeks.
I am very excited for the upcoming changes as well as feeling a bit nervous. One thing is for certain is that I see the Kairos timing of it all.
Vacation with Justins family was awesome. Lots of beach, games, and beach.
I also got to spend the weekend in Palm Springs with 6 girls from church. That was a great time for all of us. We needed some time to simply connect with other ladies at the church and just gab it up. It was refreshing and nice!!
Moving along head first with these wedding plans. It is really fun and exciting and also tricky trying to be creative with not a lot of money. One way or another this wedding will be a fun celebration where all of our friends can celebrate with us!!! I am stoked for it.
Anyways, I am back on the blogging scene.
Catchya lates.

Saturday, June 19, 2004

hey everybody!
I am going on vacation for ONE WHOLE week with Justins family.
SO, I won't be blogging for awhile.
Have a great week.


Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Saturday January 8, 2005!!
Save the date!!

I get so excited when I think about the wedding, mostly because all of our friends will be in one place and that will be so awesome!!!! Oh man, this is gonna be a fun ride!!

Monday, June 14, 2004

As of last Saturday night I am now an engaged woman!! Justin asked me to be his wife!!! can you believe it!!! I am so excited and thrilled, it also came as a real surprise. Let me tell you all about it.
Saturday was a great day already because we had been planning a date day. I knew what was going to happen that morning but Justin was planning the rest of the day and that would be a surprise. This wasn't a big clue because Justin usually plans surprises.
That morning we went to the beach and just hung out. We played frisbee and cards, it was relaxing and nice. We went back to Justins house and got ready for the rest of the date (this part was all a surprise).
He first took me to this AMAZING restaurant called Inn of the Seventh Ray. This place is amazing, nestled in the woods, next to a creek. It was so romantic. I thought this was the surprise.
THEN he took me to a park right on the beach. We had been to this park before on our 1 month anniversary. He had brought his guitar and it was really close to sunset time. We sang together 3 or 4 of our favorite worship songs. I was crying already because it was so nice!!
He then told me he had one more song he wanted to sing for me. He wrote me a song!! It was so beautiful!!!!! Oh man, I was a mess. One of the lines in the song mentioned....will you walk with me. So at this point I kinda had a feeling he might ask me to marry him (holy crap). After he finished singing he came and sat next to me and told me that he was serious about wanting to walk next to me for the rest of our lives and pulled out a little white box from his coat.........I LOST IT and CRIED!!! I was so thrilled.
The ring is the most beautiful ring ever!! Justin picked it all by himself with NO HELP from me and he couldn't have chosen a better ring. I love it. It is so simple and lovely!!
So, that was that. Justin is amazing and I am so excited!!!
We are looking into a January 2005 wedding!!

Anyways, that's the new news. I am so thrilled and thankful.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

so, I just got done watching Dawsons Creek. And after thinking about it I realized why i enjoy watching this show so much. I think it is because these characters always seem to be so connected to their emotions. They are always so articulate when it comes to expressing themselves. I know it is just a show but I desire the same connection to my emotions as they seem to have.
I am reading this amazing book called The Emotional Healthy Church right now. It talks a lot about how many people, especially leaders in the church have totally separated themselves from true emotion, because they have been trying so hard to have the "right" emotions that they forget how they really feel. Anyways, its really good.
Yeah, that is why I like Dawsons Creek.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Now, this is sad news. Not even Knight Rider is any good anymore.

So, I saw two excellent movies this weekend. Supersize Me which is a documentary on this guy who ate nothing but McDonald for one month. This is a great film and everyone should go and see it.
The other movie was In America. WOAH!! Now, this is a great film. I was impressed across the board. Such a touching story!! One of the best aspects of this story was that their marriage has stuck through all sorts of hardships! Ah, how refreshing...a committed marriage. Anyways, I loved this movie!! you should see it!!!

Friday, June 04, 2004

So, I guess I thought of some stuff I could write about.
Last Saturday, was my moving day. The day initself I could write about for hours, it was a major disaster.....among the atrocities I drop a couch weighing in at about 900lbs. directly on my shin. It is awful looking now, and it is seriously hurting. These sharp shooting pains just keep penetrating my leg...dude, it hurts so bad today.

Justin got a new truck for his graduation gift. It was a total surprise, and yes I actually kept it a secret for over a month!!! He loves it and I can't wait to ride in it.

I got to watch the 2004 Scripps Spelling Bee yesterday. I am so glad that David Scott won. I like him a lot. I thought he was so cute. I did feel sorry for the 2nd place kid who earlier in the comp. fainted. It was sorta funny.

In other news, I got a Shrek 2 watch in my Honey Nut Cheeriosbox of cereal today. I am wearing it right now!!

wow, things have been busy. Not a lot of time to blog.
Maybe I should just stop blogging........I don't know.
We'll see.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

I got a "catalog" in the mail awhile ago from Doug Field's Simply Youth Ministry. It is a catalog of all the new and improved curriculum and other youth ministry paraphernalia and adorning the cover and back are about 100 thumbnail photos of youth group silliness.
I am all for youth group silliness. BUT BUT BUT i felt like this catalog is one of the leading sources in youth ministry and it is sad to me, that the way they promote and sell their items is by juicing up the FUN that they have.
I don't know maybe I am too sensitive BUT we have an entire world that is fun and crazy,our youth ministries are not about the games/crowd breakers......right???
I am sure that at Doug Fields church there is a HUGE amount of discipleship going on, kids coming to the Lord left and right.....I just don't want to misrepresent why our ministry exists. It's not cause these kids need another place to get crazy and have fun, it's cause they need the Lord!!
Ah whatever!

Wednesday, May 19, 2004


1. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I
think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink
whatever comes out?"

2. Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken there?
I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta it's butt."

3. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the

4. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a
song about him?

5. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

6. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the
time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?

7. Why does your OB-GYN leave the room when you get
undressed if they are going to look up there anyway?

8. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all
fours? They're both dogs!

9. If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme
crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?

10. If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?

11. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made
from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?

12.. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come
from morons?

13. Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle , Little
Star have the same tune?

14. Stop singing and read on..........

15. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet

16. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face,
he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head
out the window?

17. Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it
arrive faster?


Wednesday, May 12, 2004

So.....i bought a NEW lotion today. For seven years I have loved Vanilla Lace. In fact I am known for that smell. But recently I found another lotion that I really like....Love Spell. I am going to make the switch, although I don't think I could ever give up my Vanilla Lace. We'll see how the new smell goes for awhile.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

This weekend, I saw the light.
These past months have been quite stressful. Busy dealing with the past, trying to understand the present, and plan for the future. Areas have felt full of burden and such seriousness!!
Last Saturday my good friend Bill Sperry turned 30 and he had a birthday party. As I was dancing my butt off, i realized that I haven't felt happy or that free in a really really long time!!
Oh sad, that with the stress of life I ignored or allowed my joy to be pushed aside. Laughter, fun, happiness, joy, man these things are so important to me and they make the hard times seem so much less intense.
So, do not forget to laugh my friends. Dance like crazy people, draw with your toes, eat lunch without using your hands, paint your face for work, or walk crazy for a day!!

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

I am really looking forward to seeing this movie.

For the last couple of days my eyes have been extremely itchy and dry. I think it is a mixture between serious allergies and having the fans on in our house all the time. My left eye is real red and itchy, itchier than my right. I hope this stops soon.

Things at Jamba Juice are well, you know, things at Jamba Juice.

This month is a busy busy month!! We have a square dance, a youth conference, Justins choir performance, moving out of my house, Justins concert, new 5th grades at SURGE, Justin's graduation and did I mention.....MOVING!!!!!
Busy days ahead.

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Explain this to me..........WHY, WHY, WHY are magazines like People, Us, Star, and other such filth. So popular?? Why do we look at these magazines. Please, tell me.

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Well, I wore shorts's true.

I have nasty old lady legs, man I am depressed!

Tonight is free scoop night at Baskin Robbins. Yummy, I can't wait!

Last night at 10:00pm it was 90 in our house and 75 outside our house!

My new favorite food are these Peanut Butter filled Pretzels from Trader Joes.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

so seriously, believe it or not I have thought about blogging in the last week or so BUT I just haven't had the time.

My New York trip was really good. Strange, but really good. I had a hard time for 2 reasons. One, there were 4 children under 3 and 3 babies in utero. That makes for A LOT of baby talk. I totally understand and yet it was hard because I am not even close to this phase of life and so I felt such mixed emotions. Second, it was harder than I thought to not have Justin there with me. My friends in New York are a HUGE part of my life and I want them to know Justin. It was hard because another opportunity was missed for them to connect. Also, I just plain wanted to have Justin with me, by my side. I missed him. But all in all it was a good trip. And I didn't die.......obviously.

We are getting ready to move out of our house at the end of this month. I am still working through my options. We'll see what happens.

I have a nice red zit in the middle of my face between my top lip and my nose. So, ANNOYING.

I got to buy the snacks for our staff meeting this morning. I bought orange juice, strawberries, bananas, bagels, and little muffins. YUMMY, I can't wait.

um, that's it. Now I am no longer a NON-BLOGGER, so there.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

hey everybody. Back from break and getting ready to leave for New York tomorrow. So, I have nothing to exciting to post. Hope everyones Easter was fabulous. I had such a lovely day. Talk to you guys next week.

Thursday, April 01, 2004

hello everyone.
It has been quite a week. I am glad it is over and my vacation is on its way. I will be out of blogging comission for awhile. Have a great Easter and if you have Spring Break......enjoy it!!

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

I am fascinated by this website. Travel is really important to me. It is such a wonderful thing that in 18 hours I could be in Italy. Wow. I hope to be able to travel in my life!!

Friday, March 26, 2004

wow! busy weekend coming up.
Today Travis and Alison (justins brother and his wife) are flying in from London. Alison is pregnant so this is quite an exciting visit!! Tomorrow Justins brothers Nathan and Adam are coming down and we are all going to head to Santa Monica for a little shopping!!!! This Sunday we are gonna head to Santa Barbara to visit Jono and Erin at their church. I am looking forward to hanging with the Shaffers!!
There is no Friday Five today (sad times).
Well, have a good weekend all..........see ya Monday!

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Man, it seems like I can't shake being in the dumps.
I have a few good days but then the feeling comes back.
It's seriously getting annoying.
When I think about what might be causing it I can think of a lot of stuff. And that is frustrating as well, because its not just one thing, but many things that are weighing me down.
I know hope is important and I know perseverance is important.
So, I will carry on.

Monday, March 22, 2004

This weekend was good.

Notre Dames Godspell production was absolutely fabulous. They were so creative in adding in their special touches. The students voice were amazing, you could tell that some of them are headed for the BIG TIME. The music was as usual totally catchy and great (although they DID omit my song). It was a fun night. Doug was really good in it and I am glad that Justin and I could go.

Last night a group of folks came over and watched Spellbound. I came home in the middle of it so only caught the last 25 minutes. I rewatched it again this morning and I thought it was a really good movie. Very interesting to watch these different spellers and take note on the different family situations and living environments. I am terrible speller. My favorite spellers were Harry and George Thampy (who isn't really followed by the camera only highlighted briefly). Overall it was a really good movie.

Why does it feel sometimes that when you start going to the gym, you feel fatter? Shouldn't it work the opposite. I start going to the gym and I gain more confidence? Man, this weekend was a sesspool of negative thoughts about myself, mostly in the physical. It is something most people wouldn't figure out about me. I appear so confident and yet below the surface I feel like such a mess. Anyways, at least I have all my appendages, and am pretty healthy.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

so today i got an email with the heading:

[Fwd: Fwd: FW: Read only if you have TIME for GOD]

I promptly deleted it. That is so annoying!! Like, if I didn't read this email I don't have time for God.
Geez, why is this world so annoying!!!

Friday, March 19, 2004

Friday is here at last!!! Worked at good ol' Jamba today. Looking forward to the weekend. Saturday Night Justin and I are going to see Doug (one of our high Schoolers) in his school play, GODSPELL. I am very excited to see their version of Godspell. I had such a blast being in that play that I love love love to see other people put it on. So, I am very excited for Saturday night.

And now for the Friday Five:

If you...

1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?
Tough question, I would open a restaurant that served all sorts of different food, but the catch would be that it would be called PICTURE PERFECT and all the food would come out looking exactly like it does in the pictures we use to sell the food. Good idea, right!!

2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
Someday I will own a coffeehouse/club type place BUT if I owned a small store I would sell, an eclectic mix of records, CD's, quilts, art, photographs, and books

3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
I don't know, maybe a spiritual book on finding and keeping that balance of the Grace of God and our obedience to his Word. I dunno.

4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
I would teach all the regular subjects (math, english, history...) but I would also have great art, music, creative writing, music industry, and pottery classes. I also would beg Mr. North to come and teach economics.

5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on your album?
I don't know, folky/indie rock/blusey/anything with violin and cello/and beautiful harmonies. Sort of a Rusted Root/Jill Paquette/Gomez/October Project/Over the Rhine sounding album. Hahahaha!! that sure would be an interesting album!!

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

I have now officially asked all my roommates if they have seen my chair and no one has it (by the way, my chair was a nice dark kelly green, not that weird ugly green). This is my favorite chair, that I got for $2 when I was working at REI. It has been sitting out on our front porch since we moved in, last May. As of last week, it is officially stolen. Gone, right off our porch. Some person had the nerve to steal my chair!!!! This makes me so mad!! Now what the heck am I gonna sit on to read on the front porch!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Monday, March 15, 2004

I have discovered a new bump on the back of my neck. That now makes a total of 3 strange, unidentified bumps above my neck. This worries me. They are probably nothing BUT I do have a dying early phobia, who knows. I just really need to get that insurance from Jamba.

I had a dream last night about Jason Parr and Alicia Luna, both from High School.They were at Justins concert (may 6th, you guys all better be there!!!) and we just chatted and caught up and stuff. But it was totally weird cause, alicia luna??!!! Why the heck did she pop up......we weren't friends or anything. I am in fact surprised that I connected her name with her face. Weird. Jason Parr I understand, we were friends and so in my dream I was probably just wondering what the heck he is up to in his life these days. Weird.

Well, I am off to Power Yoga.....we'll see. At least I am not sore any more from the Brand New Booty class!!!

Sunday, March 14, 2004

by Lonestar

The only ground I ever owned was sticking to my shoes
Now I look at my front porch and this panoramic view
I can sit and watch the fields fill up
With rays of glowing sun
Or watch the moon lay on the fences
Like that's where it was hung
My blessings are in front of me
It's not about the land
I'll never beat the view
From my front porch looking in

There's a carrot top who can barely walk
With a sippy cup of milk
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong
'Cause she likes to dress herself
And the most beautiful girl holding both of them
And the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in, yeah

I've traveled here and everywhere
Following my job
I've seen the paintings from the air
Brushed by the hand of God
The mountains and the canyons reach from sea to shining sea
But I can't wait to get back home
To the one he made for me
It's anywhere I'll ever go and everywhere I've been
Nothing takes my breath away
Like my front porch looking in

I see what beautiful is about
When I'm looking in
Not when I'm looking out
Oh, the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in

I really like this song that I recently heard on the radio. I know it's country music but it is something that I have been feeling passionate about. I am so tired of movies, people, songs, television shows, people I know portraying their lives as dismal, sad, miserable lives. Their marriages are failures, they hate their jobs, their unhappy with everything and anything!! And because of this they are constantly looking outward, to other people, new people so they can be happy. I like this song because it is about looking in, and seeing happiness and beauty with the life they have made for themselves. I hope as I grow older and make HUGE life choices, the choices I make will be wise ones leaving me feeling like the writer of this song...with excitement about the life I have chosen and passion for the people that are in my life.

Stephanie was recently talking about how people have been discouraging her from marriage. POO ON THEM!!! I believe marriage is hard, and a lot of work, but I also believe it can be awesome and wonderful and not ever have to grow stale. I hope never to find myself looking outside of my marriage for hope and joy, but finding it by looking in, through the TWO of us changing together and constantly seeking to serve one another in the small things. Life does not have to be miserable and sad.

Thursday, March 11, 2004

Hey everybody check out the awesome new design. Kudos to Kathryn who is really a talented girl. She has pretty much hooked me up all throughout this blogging process. I am so happy about the new look. I hope you guys like it as well.

This has been quite the busy week. Jamba, three days this week. Thanks to all of you who have stopped in to say hello. I probably look like a crazed madd woman. I do appreciate it though.

Today I also got my membership to Bodies in Motion. I am very excited about this. I am thinking that today I might try to make it to "ROCK HARD ABS" or "MAT PILATES." I am nervous to go for the first time though. I don't really know what I am supposed to do, but I am sure like with anything after the first time it isn't as scary!!

TaTa for now.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

These are my new favorite snack food. I love these dried mangoes so much!! Here's the depressing part. You can only buy them from Costco, do you think I have a costco card??? Why does the man always have to try to keep me down. All I want is to eat my favorite snack food, and I can't because "I don't have a membership." How crazy is that!!! Oh well. Now, I can only dream of eating the best dried mangoes in the world!

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands......" 1 Thessalonians 4:11

Ahhhhhhh, to have a quiet life.

Monday, March 08, 2004

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Happy Tuesday to you all!!
The weekend was awesome. Justin and I headed to Reedley. We had a fabulous time watching both of Nick's baseball games, as well as eating at Sal's. We bowled on Sunday and that was a blast also. Going to Reedley is such a blessing that when the time comes to have to head back "home" we both get this overwhelming sense of yuck!! Weekend = blast.

Monday morning was hard core in that I had to be a Jamba at 5:45am. It was a good work day, I actually got to make some smoothies. I had a good day at Jamba. I slept 11 hours straight last night. I totally needed it. I can't wait until i am used to this new schedule.

Monday night Justin and I went to see The Passion. What a movie. I thought the film was beautifully made. I appreciated it a great deal. How a believer could watch this movie and not feel moved but the enormity of love displayed is seriously UNBELIEVABLE to me!!! I walked away from the movie and still today feel like what touched me the most is that satan has lost! He has been squished and no longer has any victory!! God through Jesus beat him down like the sad baby that he is and when I forget that victory, I am forgetting the suffering of Christ. When I give into the temptation of satan, and choose sin, I am forgetting the position of Christ upon that cross. I thought this movie was a beautiful visual reminder to me. i have the ability to choose to walk away from sin, Spirit in me enables me to choose Christ. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. I want to remember that as I live my day to day. Victory has already been decided and I feel so thankful.

Thursday, February 26, 2004

First day at Jamba Juice. 5:45am-12:00pm, it was actually awesome waking up that early in the morning and being all wake and ready for the world. I mostly did training stuff today and A LOT of dishes!!! I know that I am going to like this job!! Such a blessing.

This weekend Justin and I are heading to Reedley, so no posts!

Have a great weekend.
amy <><

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Today is Ash Wednesday, which starts the season of Lent. Many people in my church use this season to give up, fast from, or change something in theirs lives, as a way to identify themselves with the suffering of Christ.

In years past, I have given up eating cheese (which was so extremely difficult, you wouldn't believe it). I gave up BUYING food from any restaurant or fast food place. I fasted once a week during Lent. And I have given up Television.
This year I have had a harder time finding something to give up. So, what I am going to do instead is I have made a list, today until April 10th and I have written peoples names on that list. My commitment for Lent will be to pray for that person for 10 minutes. Really focusing on them and how to effectively pray for them. Then maybe I will feel led to send them a card, give them a million dollars, or whatever. I think this will be a really powerful way to prepare my heart to celebrate Easter and to soften it to those around me. I look forward to this time.
I am now heading to the sanctuary to receive my ashes for the day.

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Another rainy day in the Valley. It really hasn't been all that bad, mostly because for the last two days we have decided to run the heater in our house. Oh it is such a glorious feeling. To be able to walk around with only one layer on and no shoes and socks. I am very thankful for the heater.

This weekend I think that Justin and I are going to head to Reedley. We haven't visited Justins family in awhile and plus, Reedley is awesome. I love it there. It is much different from Burbank where I grew up. It is a small town, quiet, actually has seasons, and has no traffic. I have grown up in and around cities and I really can't wait to leave that scene. The sooner the better, although I sometimes I get afraid to actually move to a small town. Who knows where I will end up, but I do know I long for a quiet life.

Monday, February 23, 2004

Happy Monday to you all!!

My weekend was fabulous. The highlight by far was the football game played in the mud and rain on Sunday. Every Sunday a group of folks get together after church and play Ultimate Frisbee. This Sunday it was raining and we decided to get down and dirty and play some football. This was a great choice. In the middle of the game it got sunny and still was pouring rain. It was so cool!!! Man, I had a great time!!

The Passion comes out this week. I am going to go see it although I have gone back and forth a bit. It seems like the type of movie that I NEED to see but it will be REALLY hard to watch and get through. I watched Mel Gibson on 20/20 and I was impressed by him. A few rules to me seeing this movie will be, seeing it in the day so that I don't have to go directly to sleep (cause that wouldn't happen) and also I am not sure I want to see it with a bunch of people. I may become far to emotional. So, we'll see.

I start work at Jamba Juice this Thursday. I am getting excited about this. In order to work at Jamba you have to have slip proof shoes. I am getting these. They are expensive, but for Christmas my mom got me a pair of Birkenstocks. I don't really wear them anymore so I am going to exchange the ones she bought for these new ones. BRILLIANT I SAY!!!

have a good day.

Friday, February 20, 2004

Good morning!
Last night Justin, Andrew, Ben and I went to The Hotel Cafe to check out an awesome new artist, Richard Swift. The show didn't actually start until 11:00pm!!! Can you believe I actually made it! Anyways we got there and this other band was playing, they were okay but they played LATE so the band we were there to see got pushed back. Then on top of that a microphone busted. On top of all these things I was still very very impressed with the music. I really liked it alot. Got back home at around 1:15am, then Justin called we chatted until 2:00am and then I went to sleep. I actually slept until 10:00am this morning. It was so nice. Fun night, wish you coulda been there.

My weekend looks awesome. No big plans. Tonight Justin and I may try and head to Burbank to visit with my family for a bit. No word on my grandma yet, I will let you know as soon as I know.

I didn't really like todays Friday Five. So, I am not going to do it.
Have a great weekend.
Be well.

Thursday, February 19, 2004

Well, as it turns out Angie Everhart was in fact the mole. Dennis Rodman won and my man, Mark Curry lost!!! Oh man, I was so sad. Oh well, at least that show is over and I can go back to living a normal existence.

So, for those of you wondering. I did NOT get the job at Children of the Night. They actually didn't even call me and tell me. I finally (after 4 messages) got a hold of the lady and she let me know, "all the positions have been filled." Not even a call. I am actually alright with this news. All this means is that there is something else out there for me.

I accepted the job at Jamba Juice. This will be a nice addition to my life. I hopefully will be able to work the morning shifts on Monday, Thursday, and Friday. Learning how to make a killer smoothie seems like a good part time job to me!!!

My grandma went to the hospital yesterday. From what I can tell her kidneys were failing. She had started a medication and it was dehydrating her and causing her kidneys some trouble. My brother took her to the hospital and my mom was there with her most of last night. Grams is still in the hospital today but mom says she will be okay. It's weird that my grandma is getting older and starting to not be as healthy as she once was!

that's it for today, if I think of anything else, I will let you know.

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

Here is other news. My friends Jonathan and Thomas are working heavily at promoting their band Waking Ashland. I love their music. I think it is so rich and passionate. Please check them out if you have a moment. You can listen to them here. They are the nicest guys and have such vision for their music! Give um a chance.

Well, here we are a new week. I can't believe that it is already Tuesday. I probably should give you guys the scoop on my fabulous Valentines Day.
The only information I had going into the evening was that I needed to dress up and not eat. Justin wanted the night to be a surprise. Which for those of you that know me is very close to slow torture. I love surprises BUT they drive me crazy because I MUST KNOW!! Anyways, Justin kept the events top secret despite my attempts.
Our first stop was The Border Grill. A very romantic Mexican restaurant, complete with tons of lit candles. The most romantic part of this part of the night came when I was looking over the menu and Justin said, "I even called ahead to make sure they could cook a plain bean and cheese burrito." ISN'T THAT SO CUTE!!! Justin knows me so well. BUT to his surprise I ordered my first ever Taquito plate. It was super yummy.
Then we were off to our next destination. The BonaVista Cocktail Lounge. The lounge is located on the top floor of the Boneventure Hotel in Downtown Los Angeles. The lounge actually rotates so that you can get a view of ALL of downtown LA. It takes one hour to get the complete view. Justin and I shared a virgin strawberry daiquiri and exchanged gifts. Justin wrote me a lovely poem and read it to me. It was so sweet.
My Valentines Day was the best ever!! I am so thankful for Justin Souza. That I have captured his affection, is such an honor.

Friday, February 13, 2004

So tonight, instead of tomorrow night is Valentines Day for Justin and I. I am very excited because he is surprising me! This morning he slipped a little and said that we are going to dinner (all though this could have been some sort of reverse psychology). I will be sure and tell you all the details as soon as I find them out.
One of the things I love about Justin so much is that he is so thoughtful and sweet. He loves surprising me and doing wonderfully sweet things. It is so nice.

On a side note, today marks the second person that has told me I remind them of Drew Barrymore. How is this possible?? Should I be glad or no? I seem to be undecided.

Well.........and now for The Friday Five!!!!

1. Are you superstitious?
Not really, although I do some small things like wear the same pajamas all week when I have been having good dreams.

2. What extremes have you heard of someone going to in the name of superstition?
Um, I haven't really heard of anything.

3. Believer or not, what's your favorite superstition?
Don't have one, sorry.

4. Do you believe in luck? If yes, do you have a lucky number/article of clothing/ritual?
Luck, no...don't believe in luck. I believe in divine appointments.

5. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not?

Heck no!!!

So, The Friday Five stunk this week, maybe just cause I am not into all that stuff. oh well.
Have a great weekend.

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

Psalm 57:7-8

My heart is steadfast, O God,
my heart is steadfast;
I will sing and make music.
Awake, my soul!
Awake, harp and lyre!
I will awaken the dawn.

What a beautiful passage of Scripture. Today has been a great day. I have felt encouraged and strengthened through some great conversations. I have also felt a fire burning under my butt to get on my knees in prayer. I am pleased that today, I can hear the music playing in me.

NOT TO MENTION: the second to last Celebrity Mole. I am so excited. Next week is when we actually find out who the mole is (mark curry). So, stay tuned for the final results.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

The Gomez show was excellent last night. They are really an amazing band. All was well up until the last song when this annoying half way naked girl came and pushed her way in front of me and ended up standing directly in front of Justin shaking herself all over the place. I was feeling myself getting furious and hurt, that she pushed me out of the way. It was really annoying. Then Justin asked her to leave, then I moved her with my hand. Then she stood behind us whispering cuss words to us and then before walking off, shoved us both in the head. Not, a great ending to a wonderful concert.
here's what bothers me the most about situations like this.............myself. Why did I let this girl get to me so deeply? Why couldn't I have just shrugged it off and continued having a good time at the show? Things like this trigger something deep in me, I feel hurt, wronged, angry and I feel those emotions deeply.......when it really was such a small thing that could have been over in seconds.
Man, I don't know. I just know I wish the concert hadn't ended that way. BUT I had a fabulous time anyways.

On another note, I got a call from my professor who is responsible for that extremely frustrating LAB i told you guys about. Well, it turns out that I need to turn in one more lab. I needed 7 instead of 6. So for now, I have an incomplete. That just made my day!!! O how I wish this was over. O how I wish there was just one day where things went according to plan.
Ah, man!!

I going to pray for myself today. I need some sunshine moments. I am sure they are there, I just can't seem to see them that good today.

Sunday, February 08, 2004

I was glad to have read this little snipit on Valentine's Day, maybe you would enjoy it as well.

Friday, February 06, 2004

For your viewing pleasure: The Friday Five

1. What's the most daring thing you've ever done?

I went to India, I jumped out of an airplane (with a parachute and a large man strapped to my back, daring none the less), cut my hair all off, work with Junior Highers on a weekly basis, lived once with 4 girls in one tiny room, and finally tried to ride a bike down a long narrow row of picnic table BENCHES (this was a horrible experience for all involved)

2. What one thing would you like to try that your mother/friend/significant other would never approve of?

This is an interesting question......I can't think of anything that mom or Justin wouldn't approve of that I really want to do. I can think of something I did that Justin didn't approve of. I jumped from one moving car into another moving car in the Costco parking lot. He was upset when I did that.

3. On a scale of 1-10, what's your risk factor? (1=never take risks, 10=it's a lifestyle

sometimes 6, sometimes 7, sometimes 8

4. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you as a result of being bold/risky?

I moved to New York to go to a college where I didn't know a soul. I ended up making some of the best friends a human could ever make!!!

5. ... and what's the worst?

tried to eat a hamburger once, I barfed it all back up and was sick the entire night!!

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Tonight at SURGE, we are going to duct tape three kids to the wall and see who sticks the longest. It is for this reason and many others that I have enjoyed my time in youth ministry.

Tonight is also Celebrity Mole. It is the final night to change our minds about who the mole is. After tonight YOU MUST pick someone. I am so nervous because I really do not know who I am going to pick. Andrew is confident it's Angie, Justin thinks its Tracy, and I am so nervous I can't think straight.

Monday, February 02, 2004

My weekend was really a great one. Justin's family and my family have now officially met. It was super fun, and from what I can tell they got along fabulously. Grandma, did do her best at throwing in the rudest one liners on the planet BUT I think they went unnoticed by most. It is tricky how grandmas can look all sweet and nice and yet be really mean. Tricky, if you ask me.
One of my favorite bands, especially to see LIVE, is coming to play at The Avalon on February 9th. GOMEZ!!! I really love this band. Last time Justin and I saw them play at the House of Blues, I am looking forward to seeing them at The Avalon.
Happy Monday to you all!!

Friday, January 30, 2004

Two more things I forgot to mention:

First of all..............I still think Mark Curry is the mole!!

There is another album EVERYONE in the whole world should check out, especially girls!!
PLUMB, Beautiful Lumps of Coal. It is music of salvation, love, and healing. It is so beautifully written. It is AWESOME!!!!

This week has been quite busy, sorry for the lack of posts. .
I am officially DONE with school. I just have a few revisions on my Final Project but that won't take long at all. All, in all it was extremely worth it. I came away from the program with a HUGE amount of respect for my professor, Dr. Durfield. For our final night of class he invited us all over to his home (which is amazingly beautiful) and his wife served us dinner. It was really fun.
The interview with Children of the Nightwent extremely well. I am super excited. They didn't say when they would contact me, but maybe it will be within the week.
I am filled with mixed emotions about leaving the church as a job and moving into something I have NEVER done before. I am sad, and yet super thrilled. I feel really confident that this is the Lord's timing. We'll see what happens.
On a side note, the plummer is here right now fixing our washer and dryer, this is a good thing because finally I can wash my clothes again!!! Praise the Lord.

And now for The Friday Five:

You have just won one million dollars:

1. Who do you call first?
I would call Justin first.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
I would pay back my student loan for school.

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
I would buy Justin this midi sequencing system that he used in his last class.

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
absolutely, I would give a lot of money to my church, specifically to buy some vans.

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
Yes I would, but I have no idea how so I would have to ask some smarter people than me!!

Have a fabulous weekend!!

Monday, January 26, 2004

The weekend is over. It was fairly eventful. Saturday Night I went with some friends to the CSUN Men's Basketball Game. They won and it was a fun game to watch. My friend Karen's husband Jamie gets real into these games so it was hilarious to listen to him yell and heckle the other team. I laughed.
Sunday morning was church and after that a rousing game of basketball. I stink so badly at basketball it is hard to believe I once played for Bubank High School. It was fun nonetheless.
Sunday Night I went with some friends to the House of Blues to hear Tyrone Wells and our friend Mark Chipellos band Stafford. I really enjoyed Tyrone's set and Stafford wasn't bad either but it seemed as though when Stafford came up to play it became social hour. People were chatting up a storm instead of listening to the music.......SO annoying.
Sunday was also an eventful day because Justin told me that for the past two days I have had BAD BREATH!! This is actually pretty unusual for me but he said for some reason its been bad the past two days. Upon reflection, I think that it is because I have had a sore throat. I haven't eaten anything real different but I also have been using a different toothpaste. I am glad Justin mentioned it to me, but at the same time it is sorta embarassing. This morning I checked out WebMD so I am going to try and wipe this problem out. I will let you know.
As I said it was a fairly eventful weekend. Now its Monday. Tomorrow is my last night of class and the big news of the week is I have an interview with
Children of the Night on Thursday. DON'T TELL ANYONE YET. I will let you know what happens.
Okay, have a great day!

Friday, January 23, 2004

Last night Justin and I went on a date (hee hee) to Universal City Walk's Tony Romas. It was super yummy and as usual I had the baked potato soup and Strawberry Daquiri.
As we were leaving City Walk I spotted someone note worthy. Theo from Road Rules. Now, I have not seen this show in about two years BUT I do remember this guys face. Justin had no idea who he was so I thought I would share that news with the blogging world!
Today is Friday and we all now what that means The Friday Five.
At this moment, what is your favorite...

The New Amsterdams, Hanging on for Hope

The Macaroni Grill, the make your own pasta!

3. show?
Celebrity Mole, now I think the mole is Mark Curry

4. ...scent?
The same as it has been since forever. Victoria's Secret Vanilla Lace body lotion!!

5. ...quote?
"It's okay buddy."

Well, thats it for now. Have a great weekend everybody.

Thursday, January 22, 2004

Watched Celebrity Mole last night. Now I am convinced that the mole is Dennis Rodman. We shall see.
In other news, I interviewed with Jamba Juice today. I am excited about the potential of working there. I have always wanted to know how to make a killer smoothie, NOT TO MENTION OF COURSE that when you work at Jamba Juice you get a free membership to the gym across the street. This is actually why I want to work there BUT I did not mention that in my interview. I will keep you updated on whether I get this job or not.

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

Happy Wednesday!!
Tonight is my new favorite show and the only current TV show I am watching. Celebrity Mole!!!I know that you may think it is stupid and boring, but this game is awesome!! If you have ever played MAFIA, then you will love this show. Currently, after only viewing one episode I think the mole is Keisha Knight Pulliam (Rudy from the cosby show), but we shall see.
Tonight is also SURGE. It is our first week meeting since Winter Camp, and its always a fun one. I am excited.
So, yeah I am excited about today.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

Back from Winter Camp. It was a good weekend. Our kids had a wonderful time. I am thankful to be back in the world of working toilets and showers though I must admit.
Tonight is my second to last night of class. I couldn't be more thrilled!! Although I do have quite a bit of work to get done in the next week.
Then my search for the new job will begin. I am excited and nervous. We'll see what happens.
I also wanted to mention in my post this morning that I just love music. I think there is a lot of great music out there that not alot of people know about. Jill Paquette being one of them. I love this album. It has the rootsy, folk, acoustic feel to it. Not to mention that I think her lyrics speak right to the heart. Check her out for yourself. She's a winner!!!

Friday, January 16, 2004

Today we are leaving for Winter Camp today. I am excited for the weekend, we have some awesome kids coming with us BUT with school being so close to an end, I find myself feeling a little stressed!!! Oh well, I am going to let God be God and just sit back and be apart of it. Have a great weekend, talk to you guys on Monday.

And now, The Friday Five

1. What does it say in the signature line of your emails? Nothing

2. Did you have a senior quote in your high school yearbook? What was it? If you haven't graduated yet, what would you like your quote to be? Hmmm, i think it said something like, Life is an adventure. SHoot I can't remember the rest. Kat/Jenny do you know it?

3. If you had vanity plates on your car, what would they read? If you already have them, what do they say? I don't think anything, I am not into vanity plates

4. Have you received any gifts with messages engraved upon them? What did the inscription say? I got a cute little glass heart with my name engraved on it for being in my friend Sarahs wedding

5. What would you like your epitaph to be? And she will be called an OAK OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, A PLANTING OF THE LORD FOR THE DISPLAY OF HIS SPLENDOR (Isaiah 61:3)

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

In other news, I just found out there is a new radio station out there.
Indie 103.1 FM. I have yet to check it out, but I am on the dial right now. Hopefully this will be a nice alternative to the amazingly dull, repetitious music that I hear on all the current stations. We'll see!!!


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

Man, I love this poem. What a reminder, to not fear the road less taken. It reminds me of the passage of Scripture in Matthew 7. To go the narrow road, and enter through the smaller gate, and there, find myself with life.
I am encouraged this morning through these thoughts!!! Have a great day!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2004

As I mentioned before I am nearing the end of my time in the California college System, which I might add I could have completely done without (you may sense my bitterness). I am feeling such stress that I can not even seem to sleep well at night. For the past two night I have had dreadful dreams that wake me up feeling rattled and unnerved. Here is part of my beef: I needed a 1 unit science lab to complete my requirements for my Azusa Pacific University degree. So, I proceed to sign up for this class finding out that for 1 unit I will pay $405. This is a work at our own pace class. NO ONE IS TEACHING THIS CLASS TO ME!!!! Then I come to find out I have to take 3 field trips (paying for each) and complete 3 at home lab assignments (paying for all the crap as well). ALL THIS FOR A CLASS NO ONE IS TEACHING ME!!! I am so bitter. Then I have to answer all these questions, that I have no book for. I email the teacher and find out, I can look these answers up on the internet!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! This is such crap, a waste of time. Man, I am upset. Like I am not stressed out enough in this process, they need to make it worse by stealing my money and making me learn useless to me information!
needless to say, today is a bad day and I don't feel well. Hopefully tomorrow will be better!

Saturday, January 10, 2004

So, recently I decided after many months of thought, to cut my hair. I cut it pretty short, considering how long it was. It is chin length and layered. NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS, having shorter hair is much harder than having longer hair. At least with my head of hair, I MUST style my hair everyday or else it simply looks awful!!! I have in the past month shortened the length of time I must spend to about 25 minutes.........BUT still it takes time. But some benefits of my new quaff, are that now I can style my hair in about 3 different ways, whereas when it was long, I really almost always wore it back or up, simply because I was lazy.Overall, I like my new haircut, I think I needed a change. Plus, the awesome thing about hair, is that it grows back!!!

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Happy New Year!!! Wow, I can hardly believe how quickly the holidays flew by. 2004 is gonna be a big year for me, I can feel it already. I have only 3 more classes left before I am officially DONE WITH COLLEGE forever!! This is very exciting. After that, I am going to be looking for a new job, a job that isn't working at a church. This is very exciting and yet very scary. I have worked at a church for my primary job since I was 17 years old, so it is what I know and where I am comfortable. Although recently I have felt a strong sense to move on into something else. We'll see where He leads me, this is really an exciting time!!