Tuesday, March 30, 2004

I am fascinated by this website. Travel is really important to me. It is such a wonderful thing that in 18 hours I could be in Italy. Wow. I hope to be able to travel in my life!!

Friday, March 26, 2004

wow! busy weekend coming up.
Today Travis and Alison (justins brother and his wife) are flying in from London. Alison is pregnant so this is quite an exciting visit!! Tomorrow Justins brothers Nathan and Adam are coming down and we are all going to head to Santa Monica for a little shopping!!!! This Sunday we are gonna head to Santa Barbara to visit Jono and Erin at their church. I am looking forward to hanging with the Shaffers!!
There is no Friday Five today (sad times).
Well, have a good weekend all..........see ya Monday!

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Man, it seems like I can't shake being in the dumps.
I have a few good days but then the feeling comes back.
It's seriously getting annoying.
When I think about what might be causing it I can think of a lot of stuff. And that is frustrating as well, because its not just one thing, but many things that are weighing me down.
I know hope is important and I know perseverance is important.
So, I will carry on.

Monday, March 22, 2004

This weekend was good.

Notre Dames Godspell production was absolutely fabulous. They were so creative in adding in their special touches. The students voice were amazing, you could tell that some of them are headed for the BIG TIME. The music was as usual totally catchy and great (although they DID omit my song). It was a fun night. Doug was really good in it and I am glad that Justin and I could go.

Last night a group of folks came over and watched Spellbound. I came home in the middle of it so only caught the last 25 minutes. I rewatched it again this morning and I thought it was a really good movie. Very interesting to watch these different spellers and take note on the different family situations and living environments. I am terrible speller. My favorite spellers were Harry and George Thampy (who isn't really followed by the camera only highlighted briefly). Overall it was a really good movie.

Why does it feel sometimes that when you start going to the gym, you feel fatter? Shouldn't it work the opposite. I start going to the gym and I gain more confidence? Man, this weekend was a sesspool of negative thoughts about myself, mostly in the physical. It is something most people wouldn't figure out about me. I appear so confident and yet below the surface I feel like such a mess. Anyways, at least I have all my appendages, and am pretty healthy.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

so today i got an email with the heading:

[Fwd: Fwd: FW: Read only if you have TIME for GOD]

I promptly deleted it. That is so annoying!! Like, if I didn't read this email I don't have time for God.
Geez, why is this world so annoying!!!

Friday, March 19, 2004

Friday is here at last!!! Worked at good ol' Jamba today. Looking forward to the weekend. Saturday Night Justin and I are going to see Doug (one of our high Schoolers) in his school play, GODSPELL. I am very excited to see their version of Godspell. I had such a blast being in that play that I love love love to see other people put it on. So, I am very excited for Saturday night.

And now for the Friday Five:

If you...

1. ...owned a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?
Tough question, I would open a restaurant that served all sorts of different food, but the catch would be that it would be called PICTURE PERFECT and all the food would come out looking exactly like it does in the pictures we use to sell the food. Good idea, right!!

2. ...owned a small store, what kind of merchandise would you sell?
Someday I will own a coffeehouse/club type place BUT if I owned a small store I would sell, an eclectic mix of records, CD's, quilts, art, photographs, and books

3. ...wrote a book, what genre would it be?
I don't know, maybe a spiritual book on finding and keeping that balance of the Grace of God and our obedience to his Word. I dunno.

4. ...ran a school, what would you teach?
I would teach all the regular subjects (math, english, history...) but I would also have great art, music, creative writing, music industry, and pottery classes. I also would beg Mr. North to come and teach economics.

5. ...recorded an album, what kind of music would be on your album?
I don't know, folky/indie rock/blusey/anything with violin and cello/and beautiful harmonies. Sort of a Rusted Root/Jill Paquette/Gomez/October Project/Over the Rhine sounding album. Hahahaha!! that sure would be an interesting album!!

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

I have now officially asked all my roommates if they have seen my chair and no one has it (by the way, my chair was a nice dark kelly green, not that weird ugly green). This is my favorite chair, that I got for $2 when I was working at REI. It has been sitting out on our front porch since we moved in, last May. As of last week, it is officially stolen. Gone, right off our porch. Some person had the nerve to steal my chair!!!! This makes me so mad!! Now what the heck am I gonna sit on to read on the front porch!!
ARGH!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Monday, March 15, 2004

I have discovered a new bump on the back of my neck. That now makes a total of 3 strange, unidentified bumps above my neck. This worries me. They are probably nothing BUT I do have a dying early phobia, who knows. I just really need to get that insurance from Jamba.

I had a dream last night about Jason Parr and Alicia Luna, both from High School.They were at Justins concert (may 6th, you guys all better be there!!!) and we just chatted and caught up and stuff. But it was totally weird cause, alicia luna??!!! Why the heck did she pop up......we weren't friends or anything. I am in fact surprised that I connected her name with her face. Weird. Jason Parr I understand, we were friends and so in my dream I was probably just wondering what the heck he is up to in his life these days. Weird.

Well, I am off to Power Yoga.....we'll see. At least I am not sore any more from the Brand New Booty class!!!

Sunday, March 14, 2004

MY FRONT PORCH LOOKING IN
by Lonestar


The only ground I ever owned was sticking to my shoes
Now I look at my front porch and this panoramic view
I can sit and watch the fields fill up
With rays of glowing sun
Or watch the moon lay on the fences
Like that's where it was hung
My blessings are in front of me
It's not about the land
I'll never beat the view
From my front porch looking in

There's a carrot top who can barely walk
With a sippy cup of milk
A little blue eyed blonde with shoes on wrong
'Cause she likes to dress herself
And the most beautiful girl holding both of them
And the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in, yeah

I've traveled here and everywhere
Following my job
I've seen the paintings from the air
Brushed by the hand of God
The mountains and the canyons reach from sea to shining sea
But I can't wait to get back home
To the one he made for me
It's anywhere I'll ever go and everywhere I've been
Nothing takes my breath away
Like my front porch looking in

I see what beautiful is about
When I'm looking in
Not when I'm looking out
Oh, the view I love the most
Is my front porch looking in


I really like this song that I recently heard on the radio. I know it's country music but it is something that I have been feeling passionate about. I am so tired of movies, people, songs, television shows, people I know portraying their lives as dismal, sad, miserable lives. Their marriages are failures, they hate their jobs, their unhappy with everything and anything!! And because of this they are constantly looking outward, to other people, new people so they can be happy. I like this song because it is about looking in, and seeing happiness and beauty with the life they have made for themselves. I hope as I grow older and make HUGE life choices, the choices I make will be wise ones leaving me feeling like the writer of this song...with excitement about the life I have chosen and passion for the people that are in my life.

Stephanie was recently talking about how people have been discouraging her from marriage. POO ON THEM!!! I believe marriage is hard, and a lot of work, but I also believe it can be awesome and wonderful and not ever have to grow stale. I hope never to find myself looking outside of my marriage for hope and joy, but finding it by looking in, through the TWO of us changing together and constantly seeking to serve one another in the small things. Life does not have to be miserable and sad.



Thursday, March 11, 2004

Hey everybody check out the awesome new design. Kudos to Kathryn who is really a talented girl. She has pretty much hooked me up all throughout this blogging process. I am so happy about the new look. I hope you guys like it as well.

This has been quite the busy week. Jamba, three days this week. Thanks to all of you who have stopped in to say hello. I probably look like a crazed madd woman. I do appreciate it though.

Today I also got my membership to Bodies in Motion. I am very excited about this. I am thinking that today I might try to make it to "ROCK HARD ABS" or "MAT PILATES." I am nervous to go for the first time though. I don't really know what I am supposed to do, but I am sure like with anything after the first time it isn't as scary!!

TaTa for now.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

These are my new favorite snack food. I love these dried mangoes so much!! Here's the depressing part. You can only buy them from Costco, do you think I have a costco card??? Why does the man always have to try to keep me down. All I want is to eat my favorite snack food, and I can't because "I don't have a membership." How crazy is that!!! Oh well. Now, I can only dream of eating the best dried mangoes in the world!

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands......" 1 Thessalonians 4:11

Ahhhhhhh, to have a quiet life.

Monday, March 08, 2004

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Happy Tuesday to you all!!
The weekend was awesome. Justin and I headed to Reedley. We had a fabulous time watching both of Nick's baseball games, as well as eating at Sal's. We bowled on Sunday and that was a blast also. Going to Reedley is such a blessing that when the time comes to have to head back "home" we both get this overwhelming sense of yuck!! Weekend = blast.

Monday morning was hard core in that I had to be a Jamba at 5:45am. It was a good work day, I actually got to make some smoothies. I had a good day at Jamba. I slept 11 hours straight last night. I totally needed it. I can't wait until i am used to this new schedule.

Monday night Justin and I went to see The Passion. What a movie. I thought the film was beautifully made. I appreciated it a great deal. How a believer could watch this movie and not feel moved but the enormity of love displayed is seriously UNBELIEVABLE to me!!! I walked away from the movie and still today feel like what touched me the most is that satan has lost! He has been squished and no longer has any victory!! God through Jesus beat him down like the sad baby that he is and when I forget that victory, I am forgetting the suffering of Christ. When I give into the temptation of satan, and choose sin, I am forgetting the position of Christ upon that cross. I thought this movie was a beautiful visual reminder to me. i have the ability to choose to walk away from sin, Spirit in me enables me to choose Christ. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. I want to remember that as I live my day to day. Victory has already been decided and I feel so thankful.