Tuesday, December 27, 2005

1.2.3. happy holidays!!

Good bye So. Cal.


Be back in a weeks time.


Tuesday, December 20, 2005

You gotta check out this gal!!
She is amazing!!!

Once again last night I woke up at 2am from a bad dream.
As I laid there in my bed........another brilliant thought came to me.

Currently in our life situation there is a ton of stuff going on that I have NO CONTROL over!!
George Reitz dying of cancer.
Justins grandfather dying of cancer.
Justin not being able to find a new job........

all of these things, I have NO CONTROL over.

Last week as we went down to our cars to go to work we noticed that one of our bike locks had been cut off. Someone was clearly trying to steal our bikes. Thank goodness, the last time they stole Justins tires we got two locks. Anyways, since that time I have been freaking out about someone trying to take our bikes.

I figured out this morning that the reason I have been totally freaking out about the bike situation is because THIS is a situation I have Control over. I mean, in some sense at least. We can buy another lock, put the bikes in our apartment, in some way take care of it.

Interesting right??

When I am swimming in a sea of uncontrollable things, I desperately try to grab onto something I can.

Good lesson.

Enjoy the day!!

Friday, December 16, 2005

I was watching Oprah today.
I think that Ricky Martin is good looking.
HAHAHA!! Can you believe it? Ricky Martin....totally cheese ball
but also total babe as i discovered today.

As far as other famous people I think are babes....
Ben Ottewell-lead singer of Gomez (is still my number one pick)(you should hear him sing)
Edward Norton- amazing actor, and total babe

Who do you think is a total babe celeb?

Thursday, December 15, 2005

My friend George Reitz is dying of cancer.
My third friend this year.
I am so frustrated.

please pray.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Hey all.

This mornings sermon was awesome to the bone!

If you struggle with worry or anxiety.........give it a listen.

Enjoy the day!!

Friday, December 09, 2005

I am interested in seeing this movie, maybe you are too?

Enjoy the weekend.
Laugh a lot.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

In other news.......

I am reading THIS book which is so very cool!!!

I am actually reading it page by page and meal by meal (ask my husband).

I love it!
You might too....


I have the most excellent husband.
He called me today at work and suggested that we go to New York over New Years!!!
What a surprise.
Can you believe that!!
Apparantly he has been thinking about it for awhile now.

I am so excited.
It will be a mix of Justin seeing New York City for the first time (during Christmas no less) , seeing some of my college friends and celebrating our first year of marraige!!!
I am so thrilled and excited I can't contain it.

We're young.
We have no kids.
We will never be rich.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

You shall not go around as a slanderer among your people. . . .you shall reason frankly with your neighbor, lest you incur sin because of him. Leviticus 19:16-17

Slander emits a threefold poison, for it injures the teller, the hearer, and the person who is being slandered. Whether the report is true or false, we are by this precept of God's Word forbidden to spread it. The reputations of the Lord's people should be very precious in our sight, and we should regard it as shameful to help the devil dishonor the church and the name of the Lord. Some tongues need a bridle rather than a spur. Many rejoice in putting down their brothers and sisters, as if in doing so they raised themselves. Noah's wise sons cast a covering over their father, and the one who exposed him earned a fearful curse. We may ourselves one of these dark days need leniency and silence from our family; let us offer it cheerfully to those who require it now. Let this be our family motto, and our personal bond: Speak evil of no man.The Holy Spirit, however, permits us to censure sin and prescribes the way in which we are to do it. It must be done by rebuking our brother to his face, not by talking behind his back. This approach is manly, brotherly, Christlike, and under God's blessing will be useful. Do we shy away from it? Then we must lay the greater stress upon our conscience and commit ourselves to the responsibility, in case by tolerating sin in our friend we become partakers of it. Hundreds have been saved from gross sins by the timely, wise, affectionate warnings of faithful friends and family. Our Lord Jesus has set us a gracious example of how to deal with erring friends in His warning given to Peter, the prayer with which He preceded it, and the gentle way in which He endured Peter's boastful denial that he needed such a caution.

Monday, November 28, 2005

have you ever done something good and nobody knew you did it?
If you have don't tell me about it because......duh, then I would know.

It is so fun. Its like a really cool secret between you and God.

No claps.
No mimicking.
No applause.

Just good.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Two things I have really been trying to think about these last couple of days.
To not just give them a second thought but really invest myself into thinking on these things.
I thought I would share....

Psalm 84:10
"Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked."

Psalm 86:11
"Teach me your way, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name."

Sunday, November 13, 2005

there is something mysterious and beautiful about picking a scab.

I just love it.
I always have.

I know its bad for me and it will leave a scar.
I know sometimes I pick it before it's ready.

I don't know why I like the feeling.

I just like picking scabs.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

have you ever checked these lyrics out..............awesome!

Rock of Ages, cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee;
Let the water and the blood,
From Thy wounded side which flowed,
Be of sin the double cure;
Save from wrath and make me pure.

Not the labor of my hands
Can fulfill Thy law’s demands;
Could my zeal no respite know,
Could my tears forever flow,
All for sin could not atone;
Thou must save, and Thou alone.

Nothing in my hand I bring,Simply to the cross I cling;
Naked, come to Thee for dress;
Helpless look to Thee for grace;
Foul, I to the fountain fly;
Wash me, Savior, or I die.

While I draw this fleeting breath,
When mine eyes shall close in death,[originally When my eye-strings break in death]
When I soar to worlds unknown,
See Thee on Thy judgment throne,
Rock of Ages, cleft for me,Let me hide myself in Thee.

Monday, November 07, 2005

I get so excited every time I see the trailer for this movie.

Monday, October 31, 2005

update on the Halloween Charity event............

well it was a success.
There were tons of people there and a lot of generous people donated funds to Olive Crest.

More importantly Justin, myself, and the 2 brother-in-laws made our way to the off limits celeb party.

Kirsten Dunst was there dressed as a sexy cop (she is really really really really really skinny) and her boyfriend Jake G (no idea how to spell the last name) was dressed as a police man as well. We totally saw them and were hanging out in the same garage area. We were totally spying. They seemed normal and I thought it was cool that they were hanging out at this thing and not some fancy schmancy party. As they were leaving Jake gave Adam (brother-in-law) the head nod and Adam gave the 2 finger wave.

So there ya have it.

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!!

This year for Halloween justin and I will be attending a charity event at the DUNST FAMILY Home (yeah, as in Kirsten Dunst) benefitting Olive Crest Foster and Adoption Agency (which is where I work). There will be a stunt show and lots of candy!

I will be going as Frida Kahlo and Justin will be some sleezy looking 70's guy (he looks gross!!).

Anyways.........should be fun!
Have fun friends!

What are you going to be for Halloween??

Friday, October 28, 2005

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

for the last 4 nights i have been waking up between 2:00am--4:00am and can not fall back asleep. It is so strange.

And, when i wake up i am like totally freaked out.

Like last night I thought I heard somebody futzing around in our front room and i woke justin up to check it out. of course there was nothing.

I hope tonight I sleep better.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

so, it's 3:45AM and I have been awake since 2:52am.
I have been laying in bed thinking all sorts of different thoughts but one line of thought has really got me thinking.
(I am just going to be writing down my thoughts as they come, so I hope they make sense to you as you read them.........)

There are all sorts of different people in your life.

People you work with.
People who you have lead.
People who know EVERYTHING about you, good, bad, the ugly.
People who you don't really know but have had good conversations with.
People who you have worked for.
People who only know you from a distance.
People who don't like you.
Your family.
People you have lived with.
People you don't like.
People you go to church with.
People who only knew you for a brief time.

All sorts of people.

Don't you ever wonder what people think about you? I mean honestly what they think.
I think it could be valuable feedback to hear what some of these people think about me.

How often do we ask the people in our lives........what they think about us??

I think it could be very helpful.
I really like the idea of knowing how people perceive me, negative and positive.
Are peoples perceptions of my weaknesses, my struggles the same as what I also feel?? Or could they shed light on something you yourself haven't really acknowledged yet.

Very valuable I think.

Maybe I will send out a mini-survey. Asking people.

When you die....people have a lot to say about you.
I mean isn't that what a funeral is......people sharing together who they knew you to be.
At funerals they don't usually share the negative parts about you cause that would probably be a major bummer but that is something that would be important to know while you are living your life.

Okay....sending out a survey.
I need to think on this a bit more.

I think it could be very cool.

I am going to sleep now.
I have a wedding to go to in the morning (my moms).

Good Night bloggy bloggy land!!!

Friday, October 21, 2005

Not successful.........faithful.
Not revolutionary........faithful.
Not known.......faithful.

Faithful to my calling.
Faithful to my husband.
Faithful to the church.
Faithful to my children.


"Up to this moment we have become the scum of the earth, the resfuse of the world."
1 Corinthians 4:13b

Thursday, October 20, 2005

I am so used to smelling justins farts.
I am also very used to smelling my own farts.

I recently discovered that it's nice to smell a different fart.....one that isn't justins or mine.

Enjoy the day!!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Isn't death weird.

I mean I could be enjoying a weekend at the beach and someone I know could be dying.
Its weird when you find out someone has died and you think back to what you were doing.
It's also weird how when you find out someone has died you have to get up a go to work right after. Your day keeps moving, and there's has stopped.

I think about death alot.
Maybe I shouldn't.
Sometimes I can't help it.

death is weird.

Monday, October 10, 2005

I wish that some of my friends from New York would move out here. I am so sad that they are far away.

Starting Thursday justin and I will enjoy a whole weekend + 2 days together.

We are headed up to San Luis Obispo on thursday morning staying in an awesome hotel for the evening, making sure to hit the Farmers Market. Then driving to Reedley where we will spend this weekend doing Fall type things, visiting pumpkin patchs, making pomegranite(not spelled correctly I assume) jelly, and just hanging out. I am very excited for this much needed break!!!
Come soon Thursday.........Come soon!!!!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Titus 3:9
"But avoid FOOLISH controversies and genealogies and arguments and quarrels about the law because these are unprofitable and USELESS."

1 Timothy 1: 6-7
"Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk. They want to be teachers of the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm."

Next question
*What then are some examples of foolish controversies.................

According to Martyn Lloyd-Jones (what is an evangelical?) some secondary issues we the church fill the space with....
1. election vs. pre-destination
2. age and mode of baptism
3. church polity
4. prophetic interpretation (pre, post, a, mill...)
5. baptism of the Holy Spirit and carismata or spiritual gifts

----I have a few I would add to this list from our modern day-----

Lloyd-Jones has a conviction on these things (and so should we) but he will not use these things as a touchstone for evangelical orthodoxy.

Don't give into foolish arguments about these things.
Don't get involved in areas that are disruptive and not helpful.
Intriging but not edifying.
Don't engage in pety wars over things of little importance.
Mysteries which belong to God alone....let us leave be.

Next question..
What then is profitable buisness for the Christian?


Here are some questions that are the reverse of foolish......

Do I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ?
Is my mind being renewed by the Spirit?
Am I walking not after the flesh but after the Spirit?
Am I growing in grace?
Does my behavior adorn the doctrine of God my Savior?
Am I looking for the coming of the Lord and watching as a servant should do who expects their master?
What more can I do?

These are the issues that demand our urgent attention!!!
Let us spend our time thinking on these things.

Psalm 138:2
For you have exalted ABOVE ALL THINGS your NAME and your WORD.

Isaiah 66:2
This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Two of my most favorite people have just joined the blogging world.

Everybody say hello to Jason and Susan!!!

I have been noticing that recently I have had really really bad B.O., mostly just armpit B.O., but B.O none the less.
For awhile I used to never wear deodorant, because I never had B.O.
I wonder why now I have B.O.

Hmmm......I don't know.

Friday, September 30, 2005

three of my new favorites.....

Leona Naess


Kate Earl


Imogen Heap

Do us all a favor and check it out!!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


Vegetables raised nearby are fresher, and they taste better because they've been bred for flavor and not for their ability to hold up in transit (unlike the average piece of produce, which journeys between 1,500 and 2,500 miles before it lands in your kitchen). Shop for locally grown food.

Just consider: It takes about half a cup of diesel to haul ingredients from California to New York for one night's dinner. By buying from farmers nearby, you'll not only cut down on pollution, you'll also keep money circulating in your community and improve the quality of life for you and your neighbors.

Look for local food at your farmers' market, or find a grower at localharvest.org.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Jenny Smith, thank you for adding my next postcard to the collection. Now New York City will be represented.

In other news.....I learned of an amazing organization this past weekend.
Worth your time and consideration as well.

Equal Exchange check it out!!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

I love hymns, singing hymns, reading hymns, memorizing hymns.

I just think they are so rich with words.

I feel connected to our Christian history when I sing hymns.

I would rather sing a killer hymn that a catchy chorus.

Hymns, Hymns, the musical fruit...........

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Monday, September 19, 2005

Justin and I are so excited, our favorite TV show is kicking off tonight!!!

You should watch it if you haven't already. It's great!!

Happy week!

Friday, September 16, 2005

Goodbye for now Mrs. Judy Vanderwiel.

Tell God hello for me!!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

My dear dear friend Susan is experiencing a difficult time right now.

Her mother Judy, has been battling cancer now for many years victoriously!!

The time has come where the disease has taken it's toll and now it is just a matter of days/weeks.

Please pray that Judy will not need any Morphine and will "go home" before the pain becomes unbearable.
Please pray for Susan, Jason and their one year old son Luke.

Thank you.


Monday, September 12, 2005

Big ups to Ms. Kathryn Weiss who added 9 new postcard to my postcard collection.

Thank you Kathryn!!

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Job’s friends. They always get a bad rap, but is that totally fair? Would someone sit silent with a wretched wreck of humanity for 7 days if he or she weren’t a true friend? I don’t think so. They showed their friendship with pure presence.

The friends’ efforts at honesty also stick out. They weren’t unwilling to ask the hard question and suggest the unimaginable. Sometimes this bordered on seemingly "off-the-wall" conclusions, but they were trying to help Job process life turns.

Sometimes events or situations just don’t fit our theology. Every effort at explanation fails. New and diverse angles don’t shed constructive insight. It’s as though rationality hits a dead end. At this point, with his arms thrown in the air, Job’s piercing declaration cry breaks the uncertain silence for all generations of humanity to hear — "though He slay me, yet will I trust Him".

The chief end of man........to glorfiy God and enjoy Him forever.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I am just dying to see this movie....

The Constant Gardener

I saw something that made me sad the other day.

A sticker on a car that said.....

"God please protect me from your followers."

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

I am going to start collecting Postcards that people send me/us.
I have some right now on the fridge....Scotland, Africia, Ecuador.

If you are interested, and remember send me a postcard from your adventures.

I think these will be cool to keep.

I'm weird, I know.
Oh well.

Have a great Tuesday.

Monday, August 08, 2005

i like cooking dinner for justin and I.

Here are some of the main dishes I cook for us:
stuffed bell peppers
salmon and potatos
baked potatos
lentils and quesadillas
spinach salad with tomatos and cucumber
scalloped potatos
chicken (a couple of different ways)
gardenburgers with corn on the cob

i run out of ideas after awhile.

so, what do you guys cook???

do you have a staple easy meal that you all like to eat?
if you do...........let me know and I will try it out.

hey, thanks friends.

Monday, July 25, 2005

It is so interesting to me how many people believe something just because they do.

AND, they'll even argue their point without understanding WHY they are arguing that point.

Thinking it seems, must bore people cause I don't think they do it very often.

Friday, July 22, 2005

this weekend is my grandma's 86th birthday.
isn't that cool......86. wow!

It is really hot in our apartment right now.

My new favorite thing is lemon water.

I think Justin and I will go and see the movie RIZE tonight.

Oh also, I like watching The Cosby Show.

Another really exciting thing this weekend.........Ryan is back from Africia and we get to hang out with him and eat Mexican Food!!

Have an amazing weekend friends.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Yesterday Justin and I celebrated 6 months of being married.
I feel like it has just flown by!!

Justin had some great plans, all a surprise.

We went to eat at this adorable Cafe. You should check it out. They have organic teas and coffees. As well as really yummy food. The Oreo Cheesecake is to die for!!
The Urth Caffe

Justin had also bought red rose petals for our table, which I thought was a sweet touch.

Then the best part....he had made this sheet of paper with 181 lines on it. He figured out that we have been married for 181 days and so we were to come up with 181 things we've done together since we've been married or things that we have learned about one another. ISN'T THAT SUCH A CUTE IDEA!!! We had a ball thinking back over the past 6 months.

All that to say, I really love my husband.
Marriage seemed really hard/overwhelming in the beginning and now here we are....
We're taking it day at a time and doing our best to really get to know one another.
It's been a lot of fun!!

Thursday, June 23, 2005

please please please please please pray for my dear friend!!!



A cake not turned is uncooked on one side; and so Ephraim was, in many respects, untouched by divine grace: Though there was partial obedience, there was too much rebellion left. My soul, I charge you to see whether this is true of you. Are you thorough in the things of God? Has grace gone to the very center of your being so that its divine operation is felt in all your powers, your actions, your words, and your thoughts? To be sanctified, spirit, soul, and body, should be your aim and prayer; and although sanctification might not be complete in you, still it must be at work in you. There must not be the appearance of holiness in one place and reigning sin in another; otherwise you will also be a cake not turned.A cake not turned is soon burnt on the side nearest the fire, and although no man can have too much religion, there are some who seem burnt black with bigoted zeal for that part of truth that they overemphasize; others are charred to a cinder with a self-congratulatory pharisaic performance of those religious activities that suit their mood. The assumed appearance of superior sanctity frequently accompanies a total absence of all vital godliness, and the saint in public is a devil in private. He deals in flour by day and in soot by night. The cake that is burned on one side is dough on the other.This is true of me, Lord Jesus; turn me! Turn my unsanctified nature to the fire of Your love, and let it feel the sacred glow, and let my burnt side cool a little while I learn my own weakness and lack of heat when I am removed from Your heavenly flame. Let me not be a double-minded man, but one who is entirely under the powerful influence of reigning grace. I know only too well that if I am left like a cake unturned, and am not on both sides the subject of Your grace, I will be consumed forever in everlasting burnings.

something for me to think about this Thursday morning!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


Today at work......................I shredded my Marriage License.

(it was an accident)

Monday, June 20, 2005

about 2 months ago I was driving on ventura and I saw Queen Latifiah driving next to me.

Now, just this morning I was driving to work and who should be in the 2 seater tan porshe next to me BUT Jerry Seinfeld....no joke.

ahhh, L.A.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

OH i am just dying to see this movie, RIZE.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Justin and I saw the movie Crash last night.
This movie is fantastic!!! I was captivated every minute of the movie.
I highly recommend seeing this flick if you get the chance.

Friday, June 03, 2005

so, i haven't had a lot of time lately to write BUT there have been no comments either.
Probably just not noteworthy info....but still people.

Have a great weekend.

Monday, May 16, 2005

So, my husband is getting hip to this blog business.
He has his own My Space thingy.

This is his first blog.....and I feel so proud of him.
He's a wise fellow!!

""Beauty is fleeting and charm is deceptive..." Ladies and ladies as for my first blog entry in my whole entire life, I dedicate it to you all. I continue to find myself frustrated with the blind movement and the treadmill motion of young females being swept into the flow of twisted self perception. Please find confidence in the innocence of your youth. Please stand firm on the solidarity of modesty.

On myspace and on the streets, the most attractive women are those who do not strive to aggressively lure the eyes of men. It bothers me so much, to see so many girls trying to sell their bodies and souls on myspace. This is what I think: the more confident that you are about yourself, as a whole, the less you will feel the need to file into the wave of flesh bearing and face painted fashion. On the other hand if you are on the bottom of the barrel of insecurity you may feel the need to swim in over sized sweats. Women are meant to be beautiful, you are beautiful naturally. Know this, understand it, take hold of the fact, and let men find you attractive for who you are, naturally.

In conclusion, I urge and challenge all ladies everywhere to work more strenuously at maintaining a healthy spirit, rather than toiling to present yourself as a pinned up mannequin. Please be more imaginative, recapture the dreams of childhood, preserve the beauty of innocence, and stand firm on the solidarity of modesty.

(On a side note: Men help your sisters by encouraging them in the ways of purity, and make sure that you too are cultivating a pure heart.)""

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Justin and I went to the Moby show last night (for free i might add). It was so awesome, just what I needed. We danced our heads off, seriously I haven't danced to good Electronia music in a really really long time. I would much rather dance to thumping Rave Techno, than sweat humping rap music.
It was a fun show and I wish we had video of us dancing!!!!
it was awesome.
Good Times!!!

Friday, May 06, 2005

It happened again last night......

I often use the Noxema pad BEFORE I wash my face, or instead of washing my face and everytime I do this in front of my husband he says...."you know amy, i think you need to wash your face before you use that for it to work."

Let it be man, let it be!!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Maria Taylor was on KCRW this morning. Man, she was awesome.
She has gone solo, she used to be in the band AzureRay...take listen if you get the chance.

Have a good day!!

Friday, April 29, 2005

"If the desire to write is not accoompanied by actual writing then the desire is not to write."

"Doing is the test of Being."

Some food for thought.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

3 Movies on my MUST SEE list:

CRASH (begins May 6th)

The Assassination of Richard Nixon (already out on video)

Lords of Dogtown (begins June 3)

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

As I was driving home from work today I heard a review about a book that I am very excited to read. It is called Prophetic Untimeliness by Os Guiness. As I listened to the review I felt my heart getting excited.

In a time where I feel like the church and the leaders in it continue to try and "reinvent" the church, try to find out what the "new kind of Christian" looks like, and how to make the church relevant in this modern day, I am excited to read about how OS feels like we become more irrelevant.

The church is the Lord's to revive, not ours to reinvent.

Monday, April 18, 2005

well, my allergies have taken over my life.
Seriously my head is so stuffed I do feel like I might explode.

I never really started having allergies until the past 2 years and now it's like totally out of control.

Ahhh, may this snot be gone soon!!

Friday, April 15, 2005

Good Morning Friends,

The Sermon that I listened to this morning was a very good one.
If today, you have about 20 minutes I would encourage you to give it a listen.
The title is Three Spurious Claims - Part B .

Have a great day and an awesome weekend.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

"CHARM is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30

In the past couple of days I have been thinking a lot about the word CHARM/CHARMING.
What does a charming woman look like?
What are some characteristics of a charming woman?

I have a friend, she is a single gal and has never really had a relationship before. She is the type of gal who when a male would first meet her I would venture to say MOST would be attracted to her, she's nice looking, dresses well, seemingly loves/fears the Lord. In fact, I know that most guys who have met my friend have had a crush on her at various times. My husband claims that the reason most males are initially attracted to my friend is because she is CHARMING. This got me to thinking....

How would you describe a charming woman??
I am interested in your thoughts.

Thanks for your help.

P.S. for all of you reading this trying to figure out what friend I am referring too.....you don't know her!!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

" Do not put out the Spirit's fire." 1 Thessalonians 5:19

" And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption." Ephesians 4: 30

" Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? 1 Corinthians 3: 16

Thursday, March 31, 2005

A movie you shouldn't miss....

Born Into Brothels

3 Shows coming up that you shouldn't miss....

Over The Rhine @ The Knitting Factory April 30th

Richard Swift @ Tangier April 3rd

Fernando Ortega @ SaveMart Center April 16th

Friday, March 04, 2005

I feel overwhelmed this afternoon thinking about my husband.

I am so blessed to be able to walk beside him for this life.

He is such an amazing fellow. He is super kind, he has integrity, he is honest, he makes me laugh till my sides ache, his desire is for the Lord alone, he loves his family deeply, and he understands that sometimes I just need a hug.

I often get lost and confused as I walk through this life and I am continually comforted by his strong hands, holding me up and moving forward with me.

I am a blessed wife, to have such a husband as Justin Souza.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

I am reading a great book right now.
It's worth the read even if you just read the first 2 chapters.

Evangelical Feminism & Biblical Truth by Wayne Grudem.

My eyes continue to be opened and I am so thankful for this wonderful book.

Friday, February 25, 2005

every once in awhile I think I'll share with you some of my current favorite things....

1. Organic Style Magazine
2. Dansko Shoes & Sandels
3. our new Kitchen Aide Mixer
4. No Compromise (the Keith Green story)
Yikees, as I write this list I am hearing really loud thunder!! WOAH!!
5. Lentil soup
6. Richard Swift's double album (The Novelist & Walking without effort)

and there you have it.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

today feels like a jonah day.
I mostly just feel bummed out.

Friday, February 11, 2005

I wish they would come out with all the seasons of Dharma & Greg on DVD.

I like that show.
It kinda reminds me of Justin and I. Sorta.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Ash Wednesday was yesterday, and so begins the season of Lent.

I have decided that this year for Lent I will be giving up ANY SORT of popping zits. Which means that even if I have a gross white head that is getting ready to take up my entire face, I will work hard to resist the temptation to scratch it or pop it.

I decided this was a good idea because part of why I pop my zits is because people would look at you funny if you showed up somewhere with a HUGE white head on your face. I am hoping that giving up the zit popping will in some small way help me to identify with suffering. It of course is not suffering in the grand scheme of things but it does feel a tad embarrassing, and I do know folks will be looking at me oddly.

And so it begins............

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

This morning I didn't have to go into work until noon, so I had the majority of the morning to hang around the house. I spent a lot of that time reading the Word. It was really great.

I spent the time in Matthew 13 reading and working to understand the different parables that relate to "the kingdom of heaven being like..........." It was great time. I feel like I gained some new insights into Jesus' parables which were important for me. Understanding better Jesus' descriptions of what the kingdom of heaven is like helped me to connect it to "on earth as it is in heaven." Also, really cool to spend time thinking about.

I appreciate God's Word. I love when I have time to dig into it. I hope that as I go about my day today, I will continue to think on these things.

My friends Kim and Paul Karus, had a baby son, McKay Henry Karus on February 3rd. McKay is very very sick and the doctors have been encouraging Paul and Kim to say their goodbyes. I believe at this point they are going to TRY and do a surgery that could help McKay but there are a lot of other obstacles in the way.

Please if you think of it, pray for the Karus Family. Thanks!

Have a great day today!!

Thursday, February 03, 2005

My eyes are burning like crazy today. And I have been sneezing. ALLERGIES!!!!! Man, I really hate them.

Justin and I have been trying to walk everyday at Balboa Park. It is such a beautiful walk and we have been having a lot of fun doing it together! I am thankful that we live right across the street.

So, for the wedding I got a Kitchen Aid.....this thing is AMAZING!!! I have already cooked two batches of Chocolate Chip Cookies which have been really yummy and last night I used the Kitchen Aid to cook Mashed potatoes, which were yummy as well. I like this machine and I look forward to using it a lot.

Hmmm.....what else is going on?? Justin is still looking for a job, lately he has been feeling majorly discouraged. You could pray for him if you think of it. For patience and courage to hear God and to go where he sends.

After you get married, (and I have only gotten married once but I spoken with a few other women about this) it seems like you go through a little bit of a down time. A time where you feel sad, but for no real reason. Maybe it is because being married is kinda overwhelming, all of a sudden you share a bed, live with a guy, and no longer live with your girl friends. Maybe it's also because it's a death in a way, Death to life alone, death to making decisions that only effect you. It takes some adjusting I've experienced. Also I think for months before the wedding all you are doing is planning this WEDDING and then it's over and back to "real life." That may play into it. Anyways, I am glad that I am married and mixed with these feelings of sadness there has been a lot of laughs and fun times.

So, yeah...........ta ta for now. Have a great day!!

Friday, January 21, 2005

Ben Stein's Last Column...For many years Ben Stein has written a biweekly column for the online website called "Monday Night At Morton's." (Morton's is a famous chain of Steakhouses known to be frequented by movie stars and famous people from around the globe.) Now, Ben is terminating the column to move on to other things in his life. Reading his final column is worth a few minutes of your time.Ben Stein's Last Column...

============================================How Can Someone Who Lives in Insane Luxury Be a Star in Today's World?

As I begin to write this, I "slug" it, as we writers say, which means I put a heading on top of the document to identify it. This heading is "eonlineFINAL," and it gives me a shiver to write it. I have been doing this column for so long that I cannot even recall when I started. I loved writing this column so much for so long I came to believe it would never end.It worked well for a long time, but gradually, my changing as a person and the world's change have overtaken it. On a small scale, Morton's, while better than ever, no longer attracts as many stars as it used to. It still brings in the rich people in droves and definitely some stars. I saw Samuel L. Jackson there a few days ago, and we had a nice visit, and right before that, I saw and had a splendid talk with Warren Beatty in an elevator, in which we agreed that Splendor in the Grass was a super movie. But Morton's is not the star galaxy it once was, though it probably will be again.Beyond that, a bigger change has happened. I no longer think Hollywood stars are terribly important. They are uniformly pleasant, friendly people, and they treat me better than I deserve to be treated. But a man or woman who makes a huge wage for memorizing lines and reciting them in front of a camera is no longer my idea of a shining star we should all look up to.How can a man or woman who makes an eight-figure wage and lives in insane luxury really be a star in today's world, if by a "star" we mean someone bright and powerful and attractive as a role model? Real stars are not riding around in the backs of limousines or in Porsches or getting trained in yoga or Pilates and eating only raw fruit while they have Vietnamese girls do their nails.They can be interesting, nice people, but they are not heroes to me any longer. A real star is the soldier of the 4th Infantry Division who poked his head into a hole on a farm near Tikrit, Iraq. He could have been met by a bomb or a hail of AK-47 bullets. Instead, he faced an abject Saddam Hussein and the gratitude of all of the decent people of the world.A real star is the U.S. soldier who was sent to disarm a bomb next to a road north of Baghdad. He approached it, and the bomb went off and killed him.A real star, the kind who haunts my memory night and day, is the U.S. soldier in Baghdad who saw a little girl playing with a piece of unexploded ordnance on a street near where he was guarding a station. He pushed her aside and threw himself on it just as it exploded. He left a family desolate in California and a little girl alive in Baghdad.The stars who deserve media attention are not the ones who have lavish weddings on TV but the ones who patrol the streets of Mosul even after two of their buddies were murdered and their bodies battered and stripped for the sin of trying to protect Iraqis from terrorists.We put couples with incomes of $100 million a year on the covers of our magazines. The noncoms and officers who barely scrape by on military pay but stand on guard in Afghanistan and Iraq and on ships and in submarines and near the Arctic Circle are anonymous as they live and die.I am no longer comfortable being a part of the system that has such poor values, and I do not want to perpetuate those values by pretending that who is eating at Morton's is a big subject.There are plenty of other stars in the American firmament...the policemen and women who go off on patrol in South Central and have no idea if they will return alive; the orderlies and paramedics who bring in people who have been in terrible accidents and prepare them for surgery; the teachers and nurses who throw their whole spirits into caring for autistic children; the kind men and women who work in hospices and in cancer wards.Think of each and every fireman who was running up the stairs at the World Trade Center as the towers began to collapse. Now you have my idea of a real hero.We are not responsible for the operation of the universe, and what happens to us is not terribly important. God is real, not a fiction; and when we turn over our lives to Him, He takes far better care of us than we could ever do for ourselves. In a word, we make ourselves sane when we fire ourselves as the directors of the movie of our lives and turn the power over to Him.I came to realize that life lived to help others is the only one that matters. This is my highest and best use as a human. I can put it another way. Years ago, I realized I could never be as great an actor as Olivier or as good a comic as Steve Martin...or Martin Mull or Fred Willard--or as good an economist as Samuelson or Friedman or as good a writer as Fitzgerald. Or even remotely close to any of them.But I could be a devoted father to my son, husband to my wife and, above all, a good son to the parents who had done so much for me. This came to be my main task in life. I did it moderately well with my son, pretty well with my wife and well indeed with my parents (with my sister's help). I cared for and paid attention to them in their declining years. I stayed with my father as he got sick, went into extremis and then into a coma and then entered immortality with my sister and me reading him the Psalms.This was the only point at which my life touched the lives of the soldiers in Iraq or the firefighters in New York. I came to realize that life lived to help others is the only one that matters and that it is my duty, in return for the lavish life God has devolved upon me, to help others He has placed in my path. This is my highest and best use as a human.Faith is not believing that God can. It is knowing that God will.

By Ben Stein

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

There was a mudslide here in California, in a small town called La Conchita last week.

A good friend of mine from college died in that mudslide.
Vanessa was a super cool girl.

Here are three really good links to read more about the people who lost their lives in that tragedy.


Death is very interesting!

Monday, January 17, 2005

well here we are........I am officially Mrs. Amy Souza!!
The wedding was awesome (well in my opinion it was). It was pouring down rain....I mean I haven't seen it rain like that in awhile BUT everything was great.
I actually remember a lot of the ceremony and stuff....people said that it all seems like a blur so, I really tried to focus.
We got back from our honeymoon last night...we went to Jamaica!! It was awesome. The resort we stayed at was excellent!! I would highly recommend it.

So, now we are getting back into the swing of things.

Everybody worked so hard for this wedding.....it's hard to know how to properly thank folks. Pretty humbling.

Thanks everyone!!!

Have an IRIE day!! ( a little Jamaican left in me)