so, I have cellulite.
This is a horrible truth that I hate even to admit.
But since it is about 90 degrees outside today i am forced to begin thinking about the summer and pools, parties, the beach, and bathing suits.
I always get nervous right before summer starts because I know in a few weeks I will have to bare the back of my legs in front of strangers and friends and just hope that they are not totally repulsed.
Last night as I was laying in my bed, dreading the BBQ/swim party Justin and I have planned for this Saturday I began to get really nervous about getting into my suit. The fear is that my friends will look at my legs and go, "man, that is really gross how could anyone love her," or they will say "amy is such a nice girl but man the back of her legs are FUNK NASTY," or what about "poor justin."
now, would any of my friends think that??? I don't know if they would or wouldn't ( i bet they would) but when I think about it....my cellulite may be gross but it doesn't change who I am. I am a really cool friend and I throw awesome parties....who really cares that my legs are a bit chunky.
So, this summer it is my resolve to really try NOT to care what people are thinking about my legs. I can still run, jump, play frisbee with the best of them, work out, swim and walk and for all of those things I am thankful.
and there you have it......
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
so, I have cellulite.
Posted by Amy Souza at 12:49 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Three Words for you........
ZACH AND MANDY....
yup, last night...Over the Rhine concert...justin and I shook hands with the fabulous couple and spent a few mintues shooting the breeze with Mr. Braff and Miss. Moore...
welcome to l.a.
Posted by Amy Souza at 4:54 PM
Thursday, May 11, 2006
so, there is a top secret show that i love watching but that i kinda keep off the radar.
Its one of those shows that no one would guess that I (and justin-i might add) watch.
so, what is your top secret tv show that you watch??
I am dying to know!!!
Posted by Amy Souza at 7:37 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Would you believe that in this past year and a half I have had 5 of my very close friends parents die of cancer, 1 that is currently dying, 1 grandma, and 1 dad & 1 grandpa currently fighting this disease.......
Makes me so angry.
Makes me so sad.
Posted by Amy Souza at 5:07 PM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
i watched a very interesting OPRAH show today.
It was about the mirage of marriage.
I will be interested in reading this book...."LIES AT THE ALTAR"
Part of having a successful marriage is both people showing up as their true selves.
Marriage is not two halves making a whole.
It is two whole people coming together being/accepting the other for their true selves.
and I think in the first couple months of our marriage we really had to work through some of these thoughts.........it wasn't about us losing a part of ourselves to become one, but rather accepting all of who the other is.
Justin Souza does not complete me (nor will he ever), but rather he complements me and the plan is that we continue to do so as we both evolve and grow and change.
Posted by Amy Souza at 3:34 PM