Saturday, March 31, 2007

so, this parenting job is pretty tough and kinda scary! Here are some of my random thoughts.....

my emotions feel all over the place.
I mostly feel like I don't make much sense any more.
I feel like Justin knows how to do everything better than I do.
I am nervous about Justin's return to work.
I am nervous about how Adelaide spits up a lot (we'll find out on Monday if it's reflux or what).
I am tierd. But excellent news is Justin and I got 3 hours of sleep last night in a row...I am so thankful for that.
Mostly, i just feel scared. I want to do what is best for this little helpless baby and it is all so overwhelming.
Folks have been doing this for centuries and I suppose I shouldn't worry........hahaha, but of course I do.
I just keep reminding myself that the Lord knows what is going on and he is with us. Seriously, I sometimes just call out.......HELP ME!

So, thank you friends for just listening. Sometimes advice isn't what one needs in these times. Just a good listen and an encouragment......"you're normal," "this gets easier," "you look thinner (hahahaha!!).

I promise that at some point I won't only blog about baby stuff. I'll try and get more creative.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Happy one week of life Adelaide!

Thanks for all your encouragement guys! Things are going well!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

way better put by my husband...........................

"And now, my daughter, don't be afraid. I will do for you all you ask. All my fellow townsmen know that you are a woman of noble character." - Ruth 3:11
"A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies." - Proverbs 31:10
* Adelaide = Noble; or "of noble kind"

It is our desire to be very intentional about the names we give to the children God blesses us with. Upon learning that our first child was to be a female, we searched the Scriptures to find what kind of character, spirit, and attitude God is pleased to see in a woman. The above referenced versus really resounded loudly in our hearts, and we soon discovered the name, "Adelaide." We were very excited to find a name that reflected our deep conviction for this child, and to find it to also be pleasant sounding, unique, and beautiful.

Adelaide's middle name is Esme. As you know, Amy was adopted, and has never known a blood relative. This is the first time in her life where she is able to have connection with someone of her own biological family. Amy's name (Amy) means "beloved." Esme is an old French name that also means "beloved," "loved," or "esteemed," and is a derivative of the name, Amy. This middle name we picked out reflects what we hope we can offer Adelaide and also provides for a connection in name with her mother. We think it's really pretty sounding too (e-zum-ay)!!!!

Now you know the scoop as to how we decided on Adelaide's name, and would love for you to join us in continuous hope and prayer that her heart would grow responsive to the Lord, and that she would someday become a woman of noble character. Thank you.

Much love,

Justin and Amy Souza

Friday, March 23, 2007


From the Germanic name Adalheidis which was composed of the elements adal "noble" and heid "kind, sort, type"

--there are a few different places in the Bible (proverbs 31; book of Ruth) that speak of women of "noble" character. Our prayer and hope for our daughter is that she will grow into a woman of noble godly character.

Means "esteemed" or "loved" in Old French

--Esme has the same meaning as Amy...esteemed, loved or beloved. We thought that was cool.

So.....there you have it!!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Adelaide Esme Souza (check out for meanings) born Monday, the 19th of March. Weighing 8lbs, 7 ozs and was 20 inches long.

She and mom are doing quite well. Adelaide has a bit of jaundis but nothing a few days won't clear up!!

She rocks!!!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

been having contractions most of today.....into the evening......we'll see

Monday, March 12, 2007

no baby yet.......and probably not one until early next week!
we're doing fine!!

Hopefully she will be able to come out naturally with all this waiting!!!

We'll let you know.
Pray that I don't go nutz this week with no work!!!!

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

last night as I preparing dinner I dropped a pan on my left big toe.
It hurt so stinking bad!!!
It also got swollen right away AND black and blue.

AND i couldn't even reach down to touch my toe and hold it!!

Smart right......the week of my due handicap myself.

yup, i am brilliant!!!

Saturday, March 03, 2007

i really just have always liked the month of March.
I don't know exactly why except maybe cause I like the color green and green always reminds me of March. Or maybe because in Little Women that is the families last name....the March Family. Who knows.....I'm weird!

I got out all my green stuff for around the house and it made me so happy.

I am also happy that this baby will be born in March.

Yeah, I just like March!!

P.S. why does it seem like every weekend Legends of the Fall is on TV.....weird right?!!