Sunday, December 30, 2007

argh.......the most frustrating thing ever is paying back your student loan. no matter how much you pay on it a month it never seems to go away. I had major debt from student loans after finishing up school. justin and i have been very faithful about paying off this debt and we are down to our last $10,000. but this last chunk feels like it is taking forever. for as long as we've been married we have usually taken birthday and christmas money and dedicated to putting it towards the loan. this year we were, lets take that money and do something crazy with it (you know like buy some new clothes or something---we're pretty crazy over here!!).
so, needless to say we're slowly but surely paying it back. When it is all done we'll have throw a party!!!

p.s. our friends andrew and bill are coming over this evening to play a little game called Carcassonne. it basically rocks hard core...justin got it for his birthday.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

hey sister has started a semi business from her home being a stay at home mom. she is making these very cool wet bags for cloth diaper users. she gave me one for christmas and i really love it!
you should check them out!!!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

back from dr....i think we're gonna be okay.
its just gonna be a long couple of days!

trying not be afraid or jump to conclusions but failing in my heart.

well we are home a few days early from our christmas adventures mostly because justin has pneumonia. he went to the hospital yesterday and bam!
so, we are home and i need help! seriously i'll blog more about it later but man has this been rough.
justin sees a dr. this morning around 1030...please pray for him. no seriously.....pray! if you know me, you know that i am freaked out that
there is something more serious.
okay well i am going to sit in my messy house and try and remain calm and take care of our daughter.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

well it is christmas day and everyone in this house is sick--except me and adelaide (at this point).
we still haven't opened the gifts.
yup pretty!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

alrighty friends.....we're headed out.
maybe i'll be able to post while we are away...we'll see.

em--i'll be thinking of you guys!

merry christmas.
enjoy yourselves!


Tuesday, December 18, 2007

happy birthday today to mr justin souza!

Monday, December 17, 2007

yes i know.....lack of posts...sorry.

we are heading out here on wednesday for a 10 day time with justins family. which will be very cool and very hard. hard only because i have a hard time being away from home for that long. i am a real homebody at heart and begin to miss the comfort of my own bed, space. justins brother and sister-in-law and their two kids live in scotland and whenever they come out they come for at least 3 weeks. max i think they've stayed 3 months. i don't know how they do it really and they seem to not mind it much at all. they are very flexible. anyways, i don't really think i am that flexible at heart so sometimes i have a hard time. but i am looking forward to hanging with his family and for the cousins to all meet for the first time. that will be cool.

justin and i have found ourselves fighting with one another a lot lately. i think there is just a lot going on and it always seems easier to take it out on the person who is available most of the time. sucks. but this to shall pass.

spent the weekend watching The Lord of the Rings Trilogy. love it.
gandalf is so bad it is awesome. YOU SHALL NOT PASS! i mean come on.....amazing!
i also just really love sam wise....he is such a hero. yup, love him.

adelaide is such a happy baby. she is so fun and animated and cool. i sometimes wonder how she got that way since i feel like i spend most of my time living in the depths of dispair (those who have seen Anne of Green Gable will appreciate the nod). she is light and i love her so deeply.

we always get to this point in the year and i feel really reflective and excited about the upcoming year. a whole new year ahead. i wonder what lies ahead for me/us. isn't it cool to think we may meet new people and who knows what they will add to our lives. we may go new places, see new things. next year may also be filled with sorrow and loss...who knows really. what i do know is "my times are in your hands."

so with that i'll leave this post.
cheerio friends. keep on rockin'

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

There are a lot of words that i really like to write (hand write):

Moist (and while i like writting the word...i don't like saying the word)

are just some of my favorites. i don't know something about how my letters work with the other letters. i know, i am strange.
what are some of your favorites?

Sunday, December 09, 2007

don't have enough solid brain power left to write a good post.
i did accidently head to the mall today with some friends...won't be doing that again for a long long time!!

Friday, December 07, 2007

a hearty thank you to Infant Motrin....all 3 souzas had a nice sleep last night.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

waking up every hour and a half to two this teething or what??
plus like the one thing i need is sleep to get my milk supply back and guess such thing is happening.

basically we're dying here in the souza house.
any suggestions?

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

the only news here is that our darling girl is getting her 2 front teeth (i guess that is what she wanted for christmas) so sleep in our house doesn't so much look like sleep.

oh wait, theres more

on top of the last couple nights being HORIFIC today we went to a new pediatrician and adelaide fell off the 4 foot high table thingy. yeah it was even more awful than you can imagine. i practically burst into tears. Dr. MacClaren came into the room when he heard me scream and adelaide scream. He was nice and said she looked okay but i didn't. oh lord. it was terrible. no seriously.......AWFUL.

i need a cookie. or 2 or 3 or 4....or maybe even 5

Sunday, December 02, 2007

tonight i am making lots and lots of cookies.

today justin and i were talking and he said, i have 2 dads. one who doesn't love me and one who can't. and today this makes me very sad. (broke my heart into a thousand pieces and it still feels broken right now)
it is getting close to justins birthday and he often finds himself in a funk.
i just love him so much and i think he is so cool and awesome and thoughtful and wonderful and the most amazing daddy, dad, father!

back to the cookies.