Monday, November 24, 2008

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Saturday, October 25, 2008

wow dudes, has it really been that long since my last post.
I am totally out of the blogging groove.

Here are some tiny bits of recent info in the life o' the souzas.

-i got stung by a bee the other night while barefoot in the frontyard. it totally hurt.

-we are having a boy. which we are very excited and nervous about. march 1st seems to be creeping up quick quick quick.

-last night we went to a murder mystery party which was also an engagment party for one of the couples there (a total surprise to all of us!!). It was so cool! really a great idea.

-once i have the baby i will be getting some ground ready for growing some veggies int he backyard. i am very excited about this adventure. i have never gardened before.

-when i watch LA INK i want to get loads of tattoos.

-Justin is kicking some butt at his Fantasy Football thingy at work. i think he might be in first.

-adelaide is the most hilariously awesome kiddo ever. she is so fun to hang out with and is really growing up. she makes jokes and everything.

anyways........who knows when i'll post next.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

hey friends.
not much blogging going on here on alathea lately.
since the move our computer has gone into an office as opposed to sitting in the living room where i spent most of my time. so, finding a moment to sit and jot my thoughts hasn't been easy.
plus, once adelaide goes down i am pooped myself.
i'll try to pick it back up a bit.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

we're moved in but not unpacked.
we have internet, for now.
i am POOPED.
adelaide loves her new digs and her new roomates.
there is a lot to blog about but a very unmotivated blogger behind the keys.

take care friends.

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

long blogging silence i know. HOBO!!
i just haven't known really what to write or how to write it.
its been a huge mix of every emotion.
i feel like we are on the way up the wall of the valley right now.
who knows if we'll make it up the wall before we fall it goes.

we have spent the entire day packing up our apartment.
we got a lot done! it feels nice to be moving, but i will be honest i am going to miss the kids in this complex. get a load of this.........we wanted to have a big BBQ for all the kids and their families. we spoke with our manager and she said NO. she even told us that the small grassy patch below our apartment (the ONLY grass in the whole place) isn't for kids to play on....WHAT THE H**L!! We just couldn't believe our ears. So, we are going to just have cake and ice cream this Thursday from our apartment. It'll work.

i am very excited about our new living situation. the excitment has been steady growing for sure and now i just can't wait. i think this year will be filled with learning and fun. can't wait.

there's so much i want to show you guys too. but i don't have time.
anyways, for all you knitters out there, and i know that's a ton of you.
Here is a little project you may be interested in.
i'd like to learn to knit.
maybe this will be the year.

cheers for now.
i've missed you guys.

Psalm 40:2 "He lifted me out of the slimy pit,out of the mud and mire;he set my feet on a rockand gave me a firm place to stand."

Friday, July 25, 2008

we're back home.
we're getting settled before the big move.
feeling a bit better health wise.
still have a runny nose.
justins ear seems to be healing up just fine says the doctor.
adelaide talks alot.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

sitting in a coffee house in caycucos california.
feeling a little better.
spirits are low down, dirty things sometimes.

these two fellows just walked in and they are riding their bikes from canada to mexico.
yes, they had big calves.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

yes, i am living........sort of, i think.
these past two weeks have taken me to a place i have never been in all my days.
adelaide was very sick, vomiting, high fever, teething and not sleeping. which meant netiher were we. now, i have the cold. and i have it really bad BUT there is no stoping. i have to keep going. it's killing me. she still isn't back to normal sleeping so every night i cring as evening nears and i know all i need is sleep and i will get very little. the days have been even worse. adelaide needs so much of me and i have been too sick to give to her. its been beyond hard. tomorrow justin has ear surgery and is down and out for at least a week while we are on "vacation" with his family at Cayucos. i am still sicker than a dog. i will actually go to sleep when i am done writting this. i don't really have much else to say.

we got a house and will be moving sometime around august 9th.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

some sweet adelaide moments.

**Small note before offical story. Adelaide slept with us for about 4/5 months of her life starting around 4 months old, until she decided she had had enough. she would always toss, turn, wake up and get very frustrated because our bed was small and it was a tight squeeze. so, needless to say she likes sleeping in her bed, which i don't mind but i did love listening to her breathe next to me.

Offical Story....
last night we celebrated a friends wedding. the reception started at 6pm. so, we decided to have adelaide (and kiley, her BFF) stay at home with Debbie, my friend Karens sister. Adelaide knows debbie and kiley quite well so i felt VERY confident. Adelaide wasn't very thrilled and had a rougher than normal evening without mama and dada. we arrived back home around 10:15pm exhausted from the very fun evening. adelaide woke up shortly after we got to sleep crying. so justin went in and soothed her. she fell back asleep. about 40 minutes later she woke up again...justin went in again..soothed...back to sleep. she woke up again and knowing that she wasn't teething i went in this time and got her and thought, maybe she misses us and wants to be close. so, i brought her in bed with us........sure enough...BOINK...sound a sleep and nary a peep until 6:30am. i wish i could say the same for me...i layed there for awhile just watching beautiful adelaide breathe and sleep and wondering what she was dreaming about. it was lovely!

Story #2
adelaide loves music, especially music in church and watching everyone sing. we were in church this morning and as we sang one of the final songs i was holding adelaide and in the middle of the song she raised her little arms in the air as if she wanted to give God a great big hug. it took me totally off guard and i started balling. it was so sweet and beautiful. i think she's seen us do it and other folks at church do it. val, behind us saw her do it as was awesome! really really awesome!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

for the next 2 saturdays i will be celebrating at my friends weddings.
2 different couples who attend our church.
it's important to know we all go to church together because that means a lot of the same folks will be at the weddings.
anyways, i am planning on wearing the same dress to both.
i have only one nice summer wedding dress and i have been excited to bust it out FINALLY (after being pregnant and not fitting into much of anything)!

well, who knew it was such a FOPAW to wear the same dress 2 weddings in a row?
i surely didn't.

"It is preoccupation with possessions, more than anything else, that prevents men from living freely and nobly." -bertrand russell

Monday, June 30, 2008

i feel like i haven't been a good blogger lately.
i think its because when alot of stuff is going on with me/us i have a hard time writing about it. i am not great with words, i am much better on the phone. so, i just try and avoid writing about the hard stuff because i think it never comes out right.

gossip is frustrating.
removing yourself from it is a conscience act.
being apart of it is also a conscience act.
must pull myself out of the cycle.

our neighborhood kids have been coming to our house in droves this summer. one family in particular with 5 kids! i have really loved it, although sometimes it is very overwhelming to have 8 kids in your 2 bedroom apartment. last week we did arts and crafts which was a hit for most of the girls, the boys not so much. i have been trying to think of something to do this week and i thought why not try and organize a small play or something. is this insane or what? what am i getting myself into? will the kids even be into it? so, i am off to look for a small little play. maybe i can teach them this improv game that i learned from my high school youth group. hmmmmmmm......what to do what to do.

small story that made me happy:
the before mentioned family...5 kids. they are a Muslim family who we have slowly been getting to know. dad works 6 days a week and mom is home with her 5 kids most of the day. the kids are out and about the apartment a lot and so we always see them and recently they've taken to coming over...anyways...last week our church kicked off Terrific Thursday's, where every Thursday there is a fancy event for families. This past Thursday was a trip to Underwood Farms. I was so excited about this event and wanted to invite this family. I brought it up with them and they were THRILLED! the mom wanted to come and she brought all the kids. the kids were at my house EXACTLY at 9:15 on Thursday and couldn't have been more excited. so, we went they had a fantastic time (we picked fresh veggies and everything). getting home we had bundles of veggies. suha (the mom) and i had lengthy discussions on what to do with these veggies, as they were the sort i don't usually cook with (radishes, turnips, bok choy...).
so, last night 9:30pm a knock at the door. and there stood Mohammed (the eldest son) with a plate full of these amazing wrapped rice rolls, about 10 of them and 2 pieces of pita. He said, these are for you guys from the vegetables from the farm. We thanked him and closed the door.
Justin and I stood there together hearts melted eating the best rice rolly things ever! isn't that so awesome! i was happy as i fell asleep last night.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

interested in this documentary for sure....anybody seen it?

"my eyes are dry, my faith is old, my heart is hard, my prayers are cold." ---keith green

Thursday, June 26, 2008

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

2 noteworthy videos (now, lets see if i can get them on here correctly):

Sigur Ros--glosoli

This is a song that I wrote after watching a CNN
program on Women and war. There are three vignettes;
the first is in Rwanda, the second in Mexico, Somalia
and Tibet and the third is in Burma. I quote Aung San
Suu Kyi...when her people asked her for a message,
saying how helpless they feel under military rule, she
responded by saying, "If you're feeling helpless, help
This moved me because it is so brilliant of
her to empower her people like that, I found so much
inspiration and truth in her words that it got me
thinking of all the countless women of hope...

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

i need a shower.
both for reals and spiritually.
i just have been feeling like i am carrying some dirt around with me that is weighing me down.
i want to feel clean again soon.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Hey all,
Our chat with the Bowling Family went well. We will move forward with the plan to live together. We made a list of some must haves of this future house of ours and so, that is what we are looking for. It's unknown, scary, fun, and risky. We are commited to walking this road together for right now. Hopefully we will find a place ASAP as our lease is up and we need to renew soon. I look forward to sharing meals together.

Have you guys heard about THIS book? Adelaide loves being outside and i hope to really be able to continue to foster that in her. Bugs, Butterflies, Ants, Sun, Wind and Dirt.....dig your hands in the dirt, children play with earth (like my Arrested Development flashback!!).

"We see people not as they are, but how we are."-Dalai Lama

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

lots to post about and i finally found a moment.

last Wednesday justin scored some free tickets to see Sheryl Crow at the Greek Theatre. I love the Greek. Outside, beautiful, great sound. anyways, i am not really a huge fan of Sheryl Crow but i thought she put on a great show and i liked most of her songs off the new album. She really has a lot of radio hits, i never realized. Next to us was an old drunk lady who was having the time of her life.

this past weekend was the church basement roadshow event at our church. i feel good about the organization of it. i thought the performance was interesting/successful, although i did have some critiques of it. I think it hit the crowd in different ways and i also love when something does that. We got some life changing response and some who thought it was dishonest and confusing. a good event that sparked discussion...nice.

Tonight our friends the Bowlings will come over and we will begin the discussion on whether or not we will try and find a large home to all move into together. i think there are a lot of pros and cons to the situation and I am excited to start talking about it. who knows where it will lead us...but worth the conversation for sure. Scary, risky, fun, different.

gas is $4.67 a gallon here. the solution....more localized living. Living close to job, church, that we can walk/ride bikes/roller skate instead of drive. This seems hard to do in Los Angeles.

Sunday Justin wanted to go to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch on Fathers Day and while we were waiting for our seats we saw, Jon Voight and his son, Angelina Jolies bro. even celebs celebrate Fathers Day...hahaha

I began reading Water for Elephants a couple weeks far i am enjoying it. not loving it...just not bored.

recently quite a few of my friends have been struggling with VERY strong anxiety/panic attacks/massive heart palpitations. it worries me for them. it must be very scary to have your body seemingly out of control. there bodies are telling them something...what? what are they telling them? how do they help themselves? i don't know.

ta ta for now my friends.
love each other.

"Courage is like — it’s a habitus, a habit, a virtue: You get it by courageous acts. It’s like you learn to swim by swimming. You learn courage by couraging." -Mary Daly

Monday, June 09, 2008

some stuff i am loving these days.

i love Chai Tea Luna bars......they are great.

i love Dr. Pragers Brocolli Pancakes.

i love this song by Billy Bragg.

i love this new series on Imperfect Parenting.
oh and this blog too. soul has been a bit downcast.

"the sun will come out tomorrow." -little orphan annie

Saturday, June 07, 2008

have you ever had that feeling when you first meet someone and you know that this person is gonna change things for you? open your eyes, show you around, teach you?
you see them and you, i'd like to be friends with them.

I'd like to meet a person like that again soon.

"Friendship is neither a formality nor a mode: it is rather a life." David Grayson

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

while hanging the laundry today i realized justin has one orange hanger.
its a really nice color orange.
i like it.
i made sure to hang a nice shirt on the orange hanger.

my friend hannah, from college is traveling around the world with her nico.
and they recently had quite an experiance.
you can read more about it here.
i am excited she is doing this and i am excited to be keeping up with their travels via the blog.
what a learning experiance, ya know.
intense and amazing.
you come home a changed person indeed.

alot of folks in our community give us their recycling so that we can turn it in for profit. and last time we took our cans in we got $27! that is a lot of money.
its just a small example of how cool our friends are.

i enjoy eating rice pudding from trader joes. yummy.

my good friend ryan got married last weekend. it was a wedding i wish i had been at. i think they are on their way to Kentucky right now to settle in a begin a new new chapter. hopefully i'll get to meet his wife soon.

the event planning for The Church Basement Roadshow is coming along. I am so anxious to see/meet folks that come. My current idea is that i want to have coffee served but like a coffee bar. BUT not from Starbucks or Coffee Bean. I contacted Equal Exchange to see if they do stuff like that. If they don't i may try and contact local coffee shops to see if they do that? any thoughts?

how are you guys doing?

Friday, May 30, 2008

TGIF....thank goodness.
it has been quite a week for me.
i don't know easily annoyed, easily frustrated....blah.
i love Jesus, but man i feel like i am less and less like him everyday.

last night adelaide was running and playing outside with justin and tripped into some bars and split her lip open. there was a lot of blood. justin brought her inside and he was like, stay calm. i was seriously freaked out (it was just a small gash and stopped bleeding pretty quickly). I realized in that moment i am not that person, you know, the one that remains cool, calm and collected in times of trial. i freak., yeah.......i know this is the first of many many injuries for our little dare-devil...i better get better at staying calm.

tomorrow evening our friends will come for dinner and then stay with adelaide so i can take justin on a surprise. i think he'll like it alot. i'll tell you later what it is.

may is almost over....

"And what does it feel like?" we asked.
"Well, " she said,
leaning over to us like a secret,
"it feels like a gust of wind
blowing inside your heart.
It feels like bright yellow paint."

~ Monique Duvall, The Persistence of Yellow

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

interesting website/report.
check it.

headed to the dentist.........ARGH!
first time in a long time!!!

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

hey friends,
back from a lovely weekend in reedley.
it was really a great weekend.
nice and relaxing...not to mention 9 lab puppies!

sunday afternoon we had a BBQ and we had a very interesting talk with justins step-grandfather.
he was a chemist at PG&E for like a million years or something(very smart guy)...anyways, he starting talking about oil, nuclear energy, and the current state of affairs and he said, "you know i don't really have to worry about it all since i won't be here much longer but man, if i was you i'd be worried." and then he went on to say, "and for adelaide, I'd be really worried."

this really got justin and i thinking. it was good.
are we prepared to bring more children into this world?
should we?
how can we consume less?
what are some changes we can make as a family?
we pat ourselves on the back for all these amazing inventions on ways to make our lives more comfortable and easy and really they are the start of the demise.
anyways, it was good.

we watched the movie Cloverfield and didn't really have stong feelings one way or another. a good thrilling monster movie with some laughs. justins mom lent us No COuntry for old men, so sometime soon, we'll give that a watch

justins office has moved and it still only takes him 30 minutes to get there and back. so, we are thinking we won't be moving from our apt. actually we are thinking of moving to another apt in our current complex. one off of the street so we can actually open our doors and not hear cars, trucks and motorcycles. we'll see.

Here are two contests you should know about:

thats it for now my loviez.

"feel the fear and do it anyways."

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

i am desperate to watch this film.
doc lived such a very interesting life.
read more about him and his family here.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

what are some effective ways to publicize an event?
i mentioned a few posts back about an event our church is hosting.
and andrew and i are kinda in charge of getting the word out but i find myself struggling with how to, where to go, yada yada yada.
i think it's gonna be a cool, worth while event and i want people to know about it.

some thoughts i have are mainly that word of mouth is probably in this situation what will work best.
maybe contacting some local churches.
but that seems so inside the box.

i don't know.
i am struggling.
and thoughts/ideas?

Sunday, May 18, 2008

this gal has such vision.
she makes me wish i was a dancer.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

short blog.

went to the zoo today. it was 101 outside.
adelaide had a blast.
we brought her animal book along and pointed out all the animals that we saw to the ones in the book.
she liked it alot.

watched a wonderful documentary last evening called MIND GAMES.
just an astonishing journey of one family.

i am pooped.
good night.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

hey bloggers,
feels like a long time since i last blogged.

this week has been a great week.
filled with lots of not very oftens.

i met up with 2 friends from college who i haven't seen in 8 years!
it was great.
we met at Urth Cafe and had a great time catching up and people watching.

last evening i met up with a friend who i used to see alot and now don't see her all that often. we met up at Breeze's Cafe.

amd tuesday morning, karen and i went to Marmalade Cafe and had brunch and our pastors wife watching kiley and adelaide. how cool is that!!

What i love about these times is just sitting with people and talking.
sharing what we're learning, where were struggling, laughing and eating.
i love these times.
talking is good.
i always feel like i am a better communicator in person than i am in writting.
i am just not that great of a writer, which is why i am surprised that i've lasted this long as a blogger.

so, its down to the two davids on idol. who will win.........i actually have NO idea!
we haven't voted that much this season...i am not in love with any one contestant so, we just haven't voted. my guess will be david a.

i've been meaning to start reading The Kite Runner. but i haven't been able to get into the groove. i think this week i will start.

i've been struggling through some spiritual thinkings lately. nothing that i am confident enough to share without flubbing up my words but just trying to think things through. i love jesus in a major way. i just get confused about some other stuff. i love church in a major way. but i just get confused about some stuff. muddling along, singing a song...just gotta keep on lovin' people, ya know.

The Office season finale is this evening.................will there be a proposal???? oh i will just DIE! i almost had a heart attack when Jim faked proposed a couple weeks ago. we'll see......

"I am learning to write and speak of my true feelings for myself,
that's how I can let go sooner and love fuller.
It's a mixture of speaking up and speaking in,
reaching out and reaching in."

~ Sabrina Ward Harrison

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

can't remember if i ever highlighted this band before on alathea.
they are AMAZING!!!
you could too.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

funny story of the evening:
justin was grilling up some hamburgers and hot dogs and he was out on the balcony.
the hamburgers were frozen together so he was using a knife to try and seperate them.
well he was pulling and off flung 2 burgers down to the grassy knoll beneath our balcony. almost hit our neighbors balcony. hahahahaha......this made me really laugh!! anyways, he ran down there picked them up and put them back on the grill.


oh that was so funny to me.

Friday, May 09, 2008

early tomorrow morning i will be off running through garage sales!
the thrill of the hunt.....very excited.

mothers day came early for me with a lovely surprise from Justin.
As we got into the car this morning to go spend time with karen, kiley and victoria.
justin pointed out a surprise.....
it was none other than The Weepies album, say i am you and fantastic eco-friendly Thank You cards.
i couldn't have felt more celebrated.

we're off for the weekend.
Grace and Peace.

"Both candle and the moth crazy around it.
say who I am. Say I am you." -rumi

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

check it.
Saturday, June 14th our church is actually gonna host this event.
should be pretty cool.
come to it if you can.
HERE is the link.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

IN LOVE....where the heck have i been??!!!

came across this cool, 3 posts in one day...crazy.

a quick post while i am thinking of it.
adelaide and i took a trip to The Little Seed this morning and while we were there it got me thinking.
everything in there is VERY expensive and not to mention healthy products in general are more expensive.
i understand the whys but it is very annoying.
i mean when these are the things that our children should be playing with/wearing/drinking from why are they not affordable for all.
it really chaps my hide.
so really now, the only people who can use non contaminated stuff are the ones that can afford it.



Saturday, May 03, 2008

Night #1 without Justin...DONE.
i spoke with justin this morning and he had a bit of a rough night.
couldn't quite get comfortable and is still trying to fight off this cold.
i hope he is enjoying today at least a little.

today we went to the The Commons and looked at the turtles, fish and birds.
adelaide just loved it.
this evening we'll go over to our friends house for an early dinner and then head back home.

you know...everyone isn't perfect.
actually no one really is.
everyone does things differently. i like that about people. lots to learn that way.
sometimes its hard how folks do things differently.
when it rubs up against "your way."
judgement is very powerful and can be awfully hurtful.
i've just been thinking about that alot lately.
i judge alot (usually in my head the most).
i just wish i could offer everyone around me more grace to be who they are.
i mean, i understand that iron sharpens iron and that growth and movement are part of this journey, the one i signed up for but i want more grace in my life.
i want justin to be showered in the grace that it is okay to think the way he does and go about solving problems the way he does and that i am not always right.
i want my friends/family to know it's okay to be who they are around me.
i desire to be a more flexible person.

that is all for now.

Friday, May 02, 2008

justin has left the building.
he is away this weekend working at the Stagecoach Festival.
i hate being here alone with adelaide even if only for a weekend.
i am sure we will all make it through with flying colors but it still stinks.

this week has been a rough week for me.
just really struggling through some stuff.
i don't know that i'd be able to articulate my thoughts very well.
so, i may just stick to some surface stuff.

haven't been reading any good books lately.
as for childrens books...i love "slowly, slowly, slowly said the sloth." what childrens books do you love?

are you excited to see the movie Son of Rambow? i am very excited about it (although we will need to wait till video). I heard a great review on npr driving home this evening. can't wait.

just a random tidbit.....did you guys know that china has alot to do with what is going on in darfur. I wasn't really aware until this afternoon. very interesting.

i am learning more and more about homeschooling. i don't have any idea where my family will end up on the education end but I am starting our reasearch now. more and more of my close friends are choosing homeschooling for their kiddos. that is interesting. i am very interested in Waldorf Schools, although i can say with confidence we will probably NEVER be able to afford it. Private Schools, Public Schools....who knows. But there sure is a lot to think about.

Well, i am going to begin my weekend home alone.

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. Do the thing you think you cannot do." -- Eleanor Roosevelt

Thursday, May 01, 2008

here is a blog i can't help but pass along.
what a powerful place for women/men who have also walked a similar journey.

interesting website of the morning...
this guy is not throwing away any of his trash for a year...keeping it in his basement AND documenting what is in there...interesting right.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

tonight i thought of a cool idea for a website.
it is probably already out there.
but anyways...its a cooking/food website where you can plug in the items you have (onion, bread, turnips, yuca....) in your fridge or whateves and then it brings up receipes that you can use.

cool idea right.
don't steal it if it doesn't exist.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

oh man is she cute or what!!!

Go to Ben and Jerry's today and get a FREE cone!!!

Karen and I with babies in tow are headed to the Skirball Center to check out the Noah's Ark Exhibit. I am excited for this adventure.

adelaide hid my keys somewhere and we really can't seem to find them.
so, i've been borrowing justins but i am thinking i am going to need to make copies.

Justins brother nicks dog has been having puppies this morning. we got the call at 6am that she has already had 2. we are headed up there memorial day weekend and i can't wait to see them. i think it will be fun for adelaide as well.

oh and by the way...tonight on american idol..........NEIL DIAMOND songs! Ah...souza heaven.

P.S. adelaide looks longer this weird.
P.S.S this is a cool blog.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Sunday, April 27, 2008

todays post on Shutter Sisters is a good one.
Check it out.

Are you doing what’s important? Are you living your best life? Are you spending time on what matters most?

Saturday, April 26, 2008

as you can see i haven't been super motivated in the blogging area as of late.
i have thought numerous times oh man i should blog about that but never actually came and sat at the computer.

Justin is out playing some Lazer Tag (totally jealous!) with the high schoolers and i am hanging with adelaide (well, she is sleeping right now).

Last night Justin and I rearranged our living room. It is soooo great. Amazing how just some small changes can really make you feel better about a space. We love the change.

In bigger news, i bought an awesome tank-top from American Eagle this morning. I got a gift card for my birthday that i hadn't used. It's very lovely and i am excited to wear it...maybe tomorrow for church.

The recent issue of mothering magazine is a good one. I just really like the article on Ani Difranco as well as the article on raising girls in this culture. Its a discussion Justin and I have a lot. How do we raise Adelaide in this nasty saturated culture we live in.

I only babysat once last week and I hate that. I mean actually what i hate is not seeing my friend karen more often. the week goes by faster and so does the day when we can spend the day together with our kids. I think this week we may try and go see the Noah's Ark thingy at the Skirball Center.

Um, hmmmmmm........what else.

Justin has been very busy at work this last week. and next weekend he will be away for work. these times make me sad for him and adelaide. i know he misses her and i can see how she misses him. but today was great. they went on a hike together and spent alot of the morning with one another. so good.

this evening we have plans to have some friends over for dinner and then play Settlers of Catan. They came last weekend as well and we had a great time. Emily brought these FANTASTIC brownie cookies! They were delicious. Oh man, i just took a sneek peak and saw what she is bringing tonight!!! YIPEE!!

enjoy your weekends and each other my friends.

"if the desire to write is not accompanied by actual writting then the desire is not to write." --Hugh Prather (i love love love this quote so much...i am glad to finally share it)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

very sad we are not going to be able to hit this up this weekend...we were too late!!

cool website.
cool band.
cool website #2
HOPEREVO goes to Rwanada....CHECK IT!
cool/funny website #3

oh and a cool baby was born to my friend heather...oliver mark...delicious!

Thoreau: "Many go fishing all their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after."

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

i try not to worry to much about money.
and for the most part i do an okay job.
living on one salary has been a challenge for sure but at the same time kind of exciting.
the last couple months it's been less than--more frustrating.
i just feel behind all the time.
i feel like there is no movement forward.
i am discouraged.

justin loves his job and i am sooooo glad about that. so, we are not ready to just pick up and move to another more affordable state/location. his job is moving to encino in may, which gives us an opportunity to move as well.
a move would be a welcome thing for the most part.
we'd love a larger space, a quieter space, a space closer to friends, a space that could hold more that 4 folks at a time. Now, i realize all of these things are wants and we may just have to stay where we are at because it's affordable for us. BUT it STINKS!
i mean, we are still inching away at our debt. Before Adelaide was born we were rocking it and now we are at a stand still. that is so frustrating. and then not to mention the fact that living in a large space just doesn't seem realistic--which totally stinks.
i've been struggling with all this as i scroll through the craiglist pages and look at apartment after apartment. we may never own a house, and really i am semi okay with that....i just want a larger space.

well, hey at least i have a space. and i have a lovely community and kids that i live with. at least justin has a job and gets paid. at least we make just enough to pay our bills. i should be thankful that we eat a wonderful dinner every night and on sundays get to go out and eat with our friends. i have lots to be thankful for and realize that i am as rich as i need to be. honestly sometimes i just get tierd of keeping perspective (doesn't that sound whiny--oh well, i'm being whiny).
Alright enough...maybe i'll go read my Compassion International Magazine now.

“Ask what makes you come alive and do that. Because what the world needs are people who have come alive.” ~Howard Thurman

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Here is a very cool series of photographs by Peter Menzel on what different families all over the world eat/spend in one week on food....

Germany $500

North Carolina $341.98

Japan $317.25

Great Britian #253

Mexico $189.09

China $155.06

Poland $151

Egypt $68.53

Mongolia $40

Equador $31.55

Butan $5

Chad $1.23

Monday, April 14, 2008

we're home.
the retreat was beyond amazingly amazing.
i had a great time.

heather has not had her baby yet and its really all i can think about.
so sorry i am of no blogging good.

enjoy today.

Friday, April 11, 2008

off to the beach soon.
spending a nice quiet weekend with 20 other adults and 2 other kiddos!
hahaha........should be HILARIOUS!!!
i am actually really looking forward to it.
i also really hope we can work in a game of Mission Impossible on night.

tried to get Radiohead tickets via KROQ's was a no go.
so, now we must leave it up to someone else whilest we are away.

heather......please don't have a baby while i am away.
but if you must.

cheerio peeps.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

some quick thoughts before my day takes my mind over.
here are some future love notes. and just plain comments i have.

don't be so dang judgemental.
mind your business sometimes.
I hate arrogance.
YOU DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING! (even though you think you do)
you higher than thou attitude is VERY unbecoming.
judging peoples hearts/motives is a dangerous place to go...i'd be careful.

there, i said my piece for the day.

oh and by the way........HAPPY LOVE THURSDAY

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

some pictures from the wedding this past weekend.

2 things about adelaide that are awesome.

1) she cleans my kitchen floor with wipes
2) she likes to put my underwear on her head/around her neck and walk around the house.

justin woke up this morning saying, "i had a dream last night that our DSL was working. i am going to check it out." and what do you know WHA LA! It wasn't supposed to be working until Monday.
the long story is we switched our phone provider to vonage which uses the internet BUT when they disconnected our old service to put vonage in they also let go of our internet provider. so, there you have it. but i think we're up and running and i am soooooo glad. same phone number and everything.

i like the internet. its very helpful.
it's hard to not have it.

we're gearing up for the young married and engaged couples retreat this weekend.
what is really exciting about this is there is about 4 or 5 couples going that i don't really know. its gonna be so cool to get to know new people. i like that. plus, beach house in oxnard on the beach...can't beat it i don't think.

okay, will post more later probably.
just wanted to let you know were up and running again.

Monday, April 07, 2008

no internet.
no phone in the souza house for the next week.
Long story no time.

Call cell if you need us.


Thursday, April 03, 2008

have you ever written or recieved an anonymous letter?

i have written tons of anonymous notes. just simple notes of encouragment sent through the mail or whatever that really didn't need to have my name on it.

a letter.......i remember in the 5th or 6th grade i got a hate letter with no name on it. but i think i new who did it.
ALSO..once i got a card with cash in it one. but i knew who did it from the handwriting.

i am trying to remember if i have ever written an anonymous letter TO someone. i don't think i have. unless it was a love note to some guy BUT that doesn't make sense right? if i was trying to tell him i liked him...why leave the name off?
um......hmmm.....i think i might have but its not coming to me...i'll try and keep thinking on this one.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

this is adelaide doing the TODAY fist.

i've been trying to get back into the swing of things since our return from Scotland.
its been hard.
i've learned that i am most organized when i have a million things going on.
BUT at some point i just get tired and then BLAH happens.

justins office will be moving to encino come may.
so, we are thinking of maybe moving a bit closer to that office.
we've been wanting to move for quite awhile now BUT it just hasn't really felt right.
currently, it still doesn't feel right.
maybe come may it will.

adelaide is one.
adelaide is one.
i can't really believe it.
i haven't really had time to process it either.
it really is very cool how much she has changed in one year. from a little blobber to a walking, talking adorable young toddler. are they toddlers when they are one? i don't know. anyways, its been quite a year for all of us. i feel like i am becoming a better parent, well maybe not better but learning more about adelaide, which makes me a better parent to adelaide.
i have alot of mom friends and i like this. i also like the fact that they run the gammet. very very different view points from all my friends. i think this is great.

we just finished up the movie The DarJeeLing Limited.
i loved this quirky take on family.
i resonated with the brothers in some weird ways.
i feel like in my life there are some things that need burying.

easter was a beautiful day for me this year.
i am thankful for it.

“Life is a gift, given in trust - like a child.” ~~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

justin spent most of the morning teaching adelaide to raise her fist and say Today when he says NEIL DIAMOND!!it's basically totally cool.

"on the boats and on the planes.....they're comin' to AMERICA." --neil diamond

Saturday, March 29, 2008

don't have enough good words to say anything more....

maybe you have something you could contribute to the auction.

check it out.

"when life hands you make lemonade."

First off, my friend Sarah had her baby while we were away.
Reuel was born March 19th (same day as Adelaide!! awesome)
Reuel means friend of god and is pronounced RU-EL.

scotland, here we go.

we had an excellent trip overall.
the flights went OKAY. i mean adelaide fussed when she was super tired and really didn't sleep much but it could have been WAY worse. the flight coming home was probably the worse of the two. once there she screamed the first two nights cause she was so dang confused. but after that fell right back into her daily schedule. coming home was a bit easier on her i think although yesterday was a bit rough. today she is back to her old self.
we spent about 5 hours in a scottish hospital the night before we were to come back cause Adelaide had a flu bug which included the barfs.
also, we discovered a very cute little series called Charlie and Lola. i am not sure if its out here but the books are way cute so we got adelaide a few of them.

Highlights of the trip:
-for traveling we were able to spend some time in Glasgow. not as much as we would have liked but it was good.
-Spent a day in Edinbugh with the Price Family(thank you friends), which was very cool.
-Justin went to a football match and spent the day on the island Arran (i was with adelaide as she wasn't feeling up to it).
-we had a fabulous hike up Law Hill for Easter. and a lovely afternoon with Alisons family. adelaide even had her first Easter Egg hunt.
-ate a meal at an old pub--just the adults (very cool)
-ate Haggis and liked it.
-i am currently addicted to Pasty's and want to bring them to the USA!!
-watching JUNO on the flight home and the first half of The Darjeeling Limited (rented it to watch the rest of it tonight)
-spending good quality time with travis and alison (justins bro and sis-in-law) in their own environment with their 2 kids just hanging out and relaxing

i am sure that i am forgetting great details that maybe Justin will include if he blogs about the trip.

we're glad to be back home.
okay i need an american idol and survivor update.....anyone?
and looking forward to whats ahead the next couple weeks.
i've had a lot on my mind lately so hopefully you'll have some thought filled posts the next couple weeks. or maybe not cause sometimes its to hard to put into words.


Friday, March 28, 2008

easter morning.
our hike up Law Hill with Travis and Alisons church family.
beautiful morning.

glad to be back.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

today is the day.
we are headed out for our trip to scotland.
you'll be glad to know that i started my antibiotic yesterday and am already feeling better.....thank goodness!!!

i hate flying....really i do.
i get so nervous that we're going to die.
i usually do alright once were in the air offically but man, do i dread it.

adelaides dedication was beautiful.
you know when you plan something and picture it in your head and then it either turns out as you pictured it OR it goes a totally different direction? well, her dedication was completely as we pictured it. everyone who played a part was well prepared and awesome. it was great to have both sides of adelaides family there. really, it was so cool.
her birthday party wasn't bad either. lots of fun new books and clothes! fun fun fun!

adelaide is an offical walker as i mentioned before. it seems she now prefers the walk to her crawl. she is so cute to watch. she has also taken to speaking in sentences (granted it's in another language). she also finds herself very very funny cause whatevers she's saying really cracks her up.

i boiled a chicken for my first time last thursday. boiled it for chicken enchilladas. they were good. but cooking chicken is nasty dude! grossed me out the whole time.

oh! i am taking some of my love notes for the airport...i mean what better place to put some, right?!

one thing about blogs that are cool is you never really know who is reading yours. i mean you have your peeps who make comments but then i bet there is a whole lot more who read but just don't comment. i like the mystery.

i am trying to leave you with a blog that will leave you satisfied for 10 days. cause i am sure you'll miss me.

2 of my friends are due to have kids soon. Sarah will probably have her baby while i am away (sad news--cause my favorite thing is to get a phone call (no matter what time) telling me a baby has entered the world) and Heather should hold out until i get back (right?!!!??!!). I don't know either of the names and i am so excited to hear them!!

i am lovin' this girls art...check it.

okay, i think thats it for now.
grace and peace friends.
grace AND peace.

"all my bags are packed i'm ready to go....." --peter, paul and mary

p.s i found this photo linked from shutter sisters and it just reminded me how good it is to have friends! thank you.....friends.

Friday, March 14, 2008

well........heres the new chops.
its a bit more flipy on the sides but thats cause today was CRAZAY.
it had to be short cause when i cut the dreads i cut them all uneven and so, we needed to even them out so my hair can grow in.
don't have much time except to upload these.
hopefully i'll get a good post in before we head out to scotland.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

wow 3 whole posts by my husband...maybe the blog thing is gonna stick.
check it.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

do we all know about
oh man.......its my new obsession.
awesome awesome and more awesome!

check this HOPEREVO video/blog out.......VERY COOL. plus i love this gals blog.

the family is sick.

we are in the midst of planning adelaides dedication, a birthday party, a trip to Scotland and a Young Marrieds Beach Retreat. doesn't that all sound exciting!!!
it really is. lots to do. lots of lists. lots of trying to think of fun ideas. i like it alot....just wish i could breate outta my nose.
OH OH OH....neti pot ='s my love. worked like a charm last night for me. Justin had a bit of trouble BUT he is really stuffy (his nose that is ;))

ta ta for now.

p.s. adelaide walks. it's so strange. she is way cute.

“Spring has returned. The Earth is like a child that knows poems.” –Rilke

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Thank to the song Fifty-Nifty that I learned in the 6th grade here is my score!!!

a side note:

i have always found it interesting that when folks move here from somewhere (england, scotland, iran, know what i mean) they don't seem to ever "loose" their accent or the way in which they form words. but when usaians move somewhere....BAM we have totally changed our entire vocabulary to fit into that culture. why do you think that is?

mostly to fit in?
you have to change some vocab so the locals know what the heck you are talking about? (yeah but this is semi understandable...but what about the accent??)

just a thought i had tonight at dinner.

i am still sick.

hey, Into the Wild is finally out on it!
we're going to.


i have a bad habit of pulling out 2 kleenex everytime i blow my nose.
i don't know why i do this.
i only ever really use one of them and then just throw the bunched mess away.
so, in this sickness (yes i ahve a cold--hey at least its BEFORE Scotland) i am trying to use only 1 Kleenex at a time.
we'll see how it goes.

way to ill to find a good quote.


Thursday, March 06, 2008

happy love thursday everyone.

some friends from college are driving up here from San Diego as we speak. i am very excited. i haven't seen these guys for a lot of years. they have a daughter who is 2 and i can't wait to meet her. it will be fun to watch she and adelaide play.

my allergies are just awful.
really awful.
hate them.

nothing else to say.

"Avoid making irrevocable decisions while tired or hungry” – Robert Heinlein

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

never always.
tummy ache.
far away.
neti pot.
cloth diapers.
no woman.

there you have it. my amazing blog of what has been going on for me these days.

“The only normal people are the ones you don’t know very well!” - Joe Ancis

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

hey all,
i am trying to get myself back in the saddle and ready to write an AMAZING blog (hahaha) until then here are some interesting links to check out.

Global Rich List
Beach House

okay hopefully that will hold you.

talk soon.

Friday, February 29, 2008

Here are 4 of our love notes.
It was so fun and easy.
I have a ton more made and ready to go out.
why not join up??

well ladies and gentlemen,
the day has come.
the moment is here.
pigs fly.

my hubbylou has decided to throw his hat in the blogging ring.
check him out here.

he says, "i'm not sure how much i'll write so don't make any promises."
hopefully he'll find some time cause dudes, he is a really excellent writer.

am headed out today and will place some of my love notes.
very excited for this mission.

"The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience…" - Eleanor Roosevelt

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Here is Adelaides first trip to the library.
very enjoyable.
a good time had by all.

Here are my love notes for my city.
I know you can't read them well but you'll see them when i place them around town. fun fun.

did anyone catch today's Oprah on Freeganism. Very interesting. Justin and I are considering doing the dumpster diving thing for food. We can't seem to find any groups around L.A. We'll let you know how it goes.

"be the change you want to see in the world." ghandi

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

i am over the moon at this new project.
please please join the revolution.
i am busy thinking up what i want my cards to say and where i will place them.
when we actually go out i'll be sure to post pictures.
hee hee i LOVE stuff like this.

it is a beeutiful day here in canoga park.
suns a shinin' and the breeze is a blowin'.

contacted an artist who i really respect about making a small project for the young marrieds retreat coming up. oh man how i hope she'll agree. why would she though. hey, you never know unless you try.

sometime soon i think will be adelaides first trip to the library.
i am so excited for this event.
i think she will also be excited because she really is in love with books.
most days when we are home we can sit together for an hour just reading books.
not kidding.
it is so fun.
so the library is gonna be great.

signing off.
everyone......enjoy today.

"Everyday life is the prayer.
How we conduct it, cherish it,
celebrate it, consecrate it."
~Sarah Ban Breathnach

Monday, February 25, 2008

my daughter sleeping is really beautiful to watch.
she calms me.
she reminds me to breathe.
she reminds me what about dependence i love.
sleeping babies are peaceful.
i am so thankful for adelaide.

“Life should not only be lived, it should be celebrated!” – Osho

Saturday, February 23, 2008

susan, thanks for your thoughts.
i am going to think this week about my little things.
i'll let you know what i come up with.
after thinking alot this week about my thing i did decide that i think my thing has something to do with people.
i love encouraging folks with notes here and there.
i like caring for the old and the young.
i especially love entertaining people in our home.
i actually think entertaining might be one of my things.
which makes sense why i've been downcast since moving in this new apartment.
it really isn't conducive for large group gatherings as opposed to our last place which was. we had a number of large dinners at our last apt and it was awesome and fun. so, maybe i need to think about smaller gatherings until a large space comes our way.

justin and i had a good night last night. we spent a good three hours just sitting and talking to one another about how we've been feeling lately. one can never underestimate a good chat. I mean I learned alot about how justin has been feeling lately and i think he did as well. good times.

on wednesday night i had a very vivid dream about a zombie chasing justin, i and adelaide. it was a weird dream in that it was very vivid. anyways yesterday i thought it would be interesting to see what a dream interpretation would be for zombies. so i looked at this website site to see what it said. you can take a look for yourself. haha for right now it kinda hit the nail on the head. but honestly since last night i feel a change in the air. a new breeze coming through the souza house. its good.

hey folks, enjoy the weekend.

“The best way out is always through” – Robert Frost

Thursday, February 21, 2008

okay so i am back.
i have some minutes before nappy time is over.

lets talk things.
over the weekend i discovered that people have things.
you know something they really like or are good at.
something that occupies them enjoyably that isn't duty, really.

dani = cooking
doug = projects/working with hands
karen = photography
jamie = sports
justin = music/writting

well........i don't know what my thing is.
i really don't.
i've been racking my brain.
do you know what your thing is?

also, have you ever been somewhere where sharing prayer requests felt a bit more like a gossip session?
good god, have mercy on us your church.

jenny smith
will come for lunch today.
very good.

Don't forget to share in the love.

the idols this year kinda stink.
i don't have a heart for any of them really.
missed the fellas.
ah well.
oh and good news........THE OFFICE is back come APRIL!

until next time.

“A great flame follows a little spark” - Dante

check out some seattle photos here

i'll post more later......kinda in a rush.


Wednesday, February 20, 2008

i'm back.............

seattle was fantastic.
isn't it so fun to see a new place.
we had a great time.
walked around a bit.
hit up REI, the experience music project, seattle center, the sculpture walk, pioneer square, tried to find the tooth and nail offices to no avail, church, red robin, bothell, our friends home, and a nice game of scrabble.
i am sure that i am leaving stuff out but it was great fun.
such an easy flight as well.
thanks doug and dani!!!

next month, march is a busy busy month.
it's gonna get crazy!
lots of visitors from out of town, a dedication/1st birthday party AND our trip to scotland. i am anxious about the length of the plane flight but it will be what it will be. i just need to buckle up for the ride and prepare mentally.

i recently joined freecycle northridge hoping to find free baby books and items. the northridge area doesn't seem to be super active. maybe it'll pick up soon come summer. i am looking forward to summer and garage saleing! FUN FUN.

heres a tasty blog for you to enjoy.

"wars are poor chisels for carving out peaceful tomorrows." Martin Luther King Jr.

Friday, February 15, 2008

just for good measure.

boy am i a sleepy girl.
don't feel able to write anything worth your time.
we leave for seattle tomorrow for which we are very excited.
too bad adelaide is teething and has a cold!
figures right!

enjoy yourselves.

"there is a me you would not recognize." ----over the rhine

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

so, i don't get whats so amazing about Kanye West.

and don't forget to stop by your local IHOP for FREE pancake day!

"Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible." – Cadet Maxim

Friday, February 08, 2008

i made it.....we made it.
tonight my best friend is back at home.
what a week he has had. so many miracles so little time to list them all here on this blog.
tonight we can not help but feel so fully this scripture:
"But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong." 1 corinthians 1:27
justin learned this week of all the many ways God uses his dad in this world.
a sick man on all accounts and yet powerfully used by God.

well, we did it.
we are headed to seattle.
we couldn't be more thrilled to spend a few days with dani and doug.
a fun community for the weekend.
yes! yes! and more yes!

tomorrow is supposed to be like 80 degrees!
can anyone say FARMERS MARKET!!
dude, i can't wait to get ahold of some amazing fresh flowers!

good evening friends.

"Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: You don't give up." ---Anne Lamott

Thursday, February 07, 2008

the road to the cross has begun. ash wednesday was yesterday. so early this year.
caught me off guard a bit. want to focus a bit on what my road will look like this year.

isn't this so cool.
these crosses can be found on a hill in lithuania.
read more about it here

i had disgusting rice for dinner tonight.
major nastola.

justin has the monday off of the 3 day weekend coming up.
we need to go away somewhere.
hmmmm......where should we go?
maybe this evening i can try and find a secret hideaway somewhere cool.

"Break The Monotony. Do something strange and extravagant!” – Emerson

In honor of LOVE THURSDAY here are my contributions.

also here is a cool contest via Geez Magazine. 30 sermons you'd never hear in church (i know a bunch of you could write a great one for this) and Holy Moly Photo (could be amazing!!!). enjoy. i'd love to see/read your submissions. enjoy.

“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing... not healing, not curing... that is a friend who cares.” --Henri Nouwen

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

i am pooped!
approaching night 3 of justin being away.
he'll be back friday and i can not wait.
everything has gone amazingly well with his dad.
we are so thankful.
its really quite a miracle.

i have some random thoughts i thought i'd blog about this evening.

for the most part i don't mind eating generic food items.
but there are two things that i just CAN NOT do generic.
Nilla Wafers and Cheez-its.
the generic brands are just plain nasty.
ill, gross, barf.
when i was pregnant with adelaide i didn't crave chocolate, pickles, peanut butter...nope, Nilla Wafers. and boy did i induldge.

on my drive to borders today i saw a sign with the dali lama on it and it said, "doesn't just wish for peace, works for it." i thought it was interesting and it made me think about working for peace.
how do i in my plain ol'simple life work for the greater peace?
how can i contribute to a more peaceful world?

we've had a vacant apartment next to ours for quite awhile now (any takers?) and i have been dreaming about who might move in. might they be 2 kindred spirits?
oh how fun it would be to have friends as neighbors. share meals together, watch some american idol, free it could be awesome. really awesome.

alright my baby is asleep and i am going to go eat some pizza.
i probably forgot stuff.


“Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.” - unknown

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

two more things......i forgot to spread the word about JOY and The Story of Stuff

check it.

happy super tuesday.
i hope you all are able to get out and vote.
this year i just have to walk across the road and cast my vote.
i live across the street from a polling place which is so cool.
it's been a buzz with activity since 7am. i love watching the folks come and go.
i like it.

well i made it through my first night alone with adelaide.
justin is with his dad for the week.
its been very rough going.
justin is super discouraged and just plain tierd.
its just a hard road and that is all there is to it.

i listened to a sermon this morning on marriage.
it was just a great reminder of the covenant that justin and i made.
take a listen if you have 20 minutes.

hmmmm, what else is going on.

i have become more interested in photography as of late.
i would like to be able to take beautiful photos.
i liked this website that i stumbled on the other day.
i like discovering new things via the internet.

someday i would like to own a labtop and sit in a coffee house for a couple of hours and just search blogs and stuff.
it would be a great time.
it would be even cooler if i could ride my blue and pink crusier bike to the coffee house.
or if it was Fall and i could ride my bike down a beautifully colored street with lots of trees, laptop in toe headed to a local coffee house to sit and surf the net.

hey, maybe someday.

enjoy today friends!

“Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle,” said Philo of Alexandria

Saturday, February 02, 2008

discovered me some Yael Naim, i think you might like her too.

“When we don’t turn away from pain, we open our hearts and are more able to connect to the best part of ourselves and others–because every human being knows pain. I’m not sure what enlightenment is, but I’m sure it has something to do with turning pain into love.” -- Myriam Greenspan, from “On Moving from Grief to Gratitude"

Thursday, January 31, 2008

forgot to tell you about this documentary....i am hoping to see soon!!

okay quickly before adelaide wakes...

congrats mle and fam on their new baby.

so this weekend justin was all set to go to the High School Winter Camp. He was so excited about this chance to hang out with the kiddos, advisors and the new High School director. last night he got a call from his grandma letting him know that his dad is being evicted from his apartment this weekend and she was in a panic. needless to say justin will instead be headed up north to be with his dad and grandma. there are so many ways that this situation could go really really badly. justin has a lot of fear about what could/will happen. please be thinking of us (especially justin). we'll let you know what happens. I'll be staying home with adelaide which will be hard on two fronts. being sole provider for adelaide for the weekend and being far from justin during this rough time. argh!

adelaide has slept better the past two nights. thank goodness. she has been standing for a lot of minutes in a row without holding onto anything. i think she is trying to walk. it is so cute. i can't believe she is already this grown. crazy.

ran into this very cool application...i think it is so neat. check it out.

what do you think about this big rebate we're all getting? i don't know what to think about it. ours will probably go straight to our student loan.

i think i have lots more to say but i hear miss thang. maybe i'll try and post more later. adu

“May you always be blessed with walls for the wind. A Roof for the rain. A warm cup of tea by the fire. Laughter to cheer you. Those you love near you. And all that your heart might disire.” - Irish Blessing

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

interesting stuff....check it.
more later........

“What are your waiting for?” – Lope De Vega

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

"weeping may last for the night, but joy comes with the morning." psalm 30:5

never has this been more true for us than the last 2 days.
argh maybe one day adelaide will sleep again.

Monday, January 28, 2008

now this is something funny!

are you seriously kidding me that these are the words??!!
i'm gonna get you drunk on my lumps?
what the heck??
p.s. if you touch it i'm gonna start some drama.

anyways, the video is hilarious.

"Fat people are harder to kidnap."---some bumper sticker

Saturday, January 26, 2008

the morning after a couple of days of heavy rain is the best time to get outside. today was just beautiful. We decided to take a small hike at a local park. it was awesome and smelled just great! After that we decided to go eat outside at The Commons in Calabasas. They have this awesome pond type thingy with birds, turtles, fish, ducks....really cool. Anyways Adelaide had a great time and was very intersted in all the animals she even kept saying FSSH FSSH (fish) and BA (bird) was so cool. we also saw howie mandel there.

tonight we will attempt to line dance with some friends. there are lessons involved thankfully. should be a real kick (get it??!!!).

justin and i are excited because we made the decision to go back and see our counselor for a much needed tune-up. Before we got married (not pre-marital counseling or anything like that) we went to see Lynne for about 3 or 4 months to hash some stuff out which was awesome. Life has been so stressful these past months with everything thats been going on not to mention having adelaide join the fam. we thought it would serve us well to go and check in. It is always helpful to have a
3rd party just sit with us and listen and teach us. we're excited. finanically God is gonna have to rain the money down from the sky BUT we figure He will.....He always does.

enjoy the weekend.

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" - Anonymous

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

i've decided to return the dress :(
thanks for the help though.

p.s. anyone know why i can't see my comments?

“Do what you can, where you are, with what you have!” – Teddy Roosevelt

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

heath ledger is dead, and that makes me sad. i thought he was a great actor. sadness and hopelessness is in all of us right? fame and money doesn't change that...maybe it makes it worse.

so, i know this is probably really cheesy but i really need some advice.
a couple weeks back i bought a dress that i really like. it is a lighter jean material about knee length with short sleeves. the cut of the dress is very sack like. not form fitting or shaped just kinda hangs like a sack....does that make sense? anyways, when i tried it on i took note to myself...okay this isn't the most form flattering dress ever but i really like it and who cares that i kinda look a bit fatter than i am.
okay bring it home try it on and showed it to justin. Justin likes the dress but also mentioned that it isn't really shaped and just kinda hangs. something i already knew but kinda decided oh well on. but now, a couple days later i am like well...i do look kinda way fatter than normal wearing the dress, although i still like it a lot.
i don't know maybe i keep it as a pregnancy dress or something.
i don't know..........what do you guys think i should do?
honestly......would you wear it?
i know its hard to make a judgement without seeing the dress.
oh well, just thought i would throw it out there.

what to do, what to do.

"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them." ---Thomas Merton

Sunday, January 20, 2008

for a long time justin and i used Dr. Bronners Soap in the shower. Then when we really started to feel the pinch of living on one budget we began using this Oatmeal and Honey Soap from Trader Joes which is a little bit cheaper. With both of these soaps i noticed that it never masked my natural scent (you know, what folks call B.O.) which i really liked about them. i don't think i have an offensive smell just a nice natural human smell. Anyways, now we have some Dove soap and that soap makes you smell like flowers, freshness (whatever that smells like), and rain. Seriously they like wipe out the natural smell really quickly. Now, I know most people like that....but i just don't.

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
---Martin Luther King Jr.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

justin is running out real quickly to get us some ice cream from Baskin Robbins before we watch Finding Neverland (which we got for christmas from my sister).

the last couple days have been rough for adelaide. she has been barfing at night. Last night she threw up around 1am and then again around 2am. She also barfed on Wednesday evening...twice. We're not sure if she has a bug or its something shes eating. Watching a baby throw up is a VERY painstaking sight. they just look so helpless and confused and in need. it is really terrible. so needless to say i have been so worried that she is going to dehydrate and die (no seriously...dehydrate and die). it is really awful the sense of panic that has entered my life since she got here. i am not the calm zen mother that i thought i would be when it comes to feeling helpless. hopefully this will pass soon and she'll be rockin' this hood hard core.

i spend alot of time imaging "my home". You know the house that i don't live in but dream about. i think about the kitchen, the bathroom, the yard, the neighbors, where we would go to church. i really wish i didn't think about it so much because i know its a long way off and that is the road we chose in order for me to stay home with adelaide (which was an awesome decision). it also puts me in a complainy mood about my current "home" and i just hate that when there are so many things to be thankful for.

justin and i seem to have been arguing a bit lately...which i hate. actually i would call it fighting not so much arguing. i notice the flare up when we are struggling with lack of sleep but what it weird is it comes on like a flash flood. we're good...we're good....we're good and then BAM a huge fight. anyways, i hate it. so does he i am sure.

well i should wrap this up i guess. justin has Monday off and i am excited he'll be here for 3 days! wish we had known sooner so we could have planned a more exciting weekend (we were looking for last minute tickets to seattle but alas they were too expensive ;)).

grace and peace.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

last night we were able to catch Shane Claibourne speak at Bel Air Pres. I was thankful to be able to go. Basically if you have read the book, he just told stories from the book. His message was "Have Less Live More." He showed a very powerful video clip from his time in Iraq to end his message. It wasn't anything very different from the book. Justin tape recorded it for a co-worker of his. so, i'm sure he'd let you borrow it if you are interested.

so, i am offically signed up to be a deacon at my church. interested, excited, nervous, curious. i'll let you know.

what are the chances of having a woman named Alma Sosa living in my same apartment complex. weird right. i always get her mail.

Justin and I have been excited for the time spent with our neighborhood kids as of late. One night after dinner we went out and played a fun game of tag in the parking lot. Adelaide had the most fun hanging from her dad's chest running away from screaming kids. it was hilarious. last saturday was so beautiful so we were feeding adelaide outside and the kids just came up and hung out with us for like a hour. we came up with some fun ideas the kids seemed into. Maybe an easter egg hunt for Easter and a big BBQ in the summer. We are excited to discover more ways to get to know our neighbors. we should be making the most of the time we are living here.

i thought i had more to say.....

"Life in community is no less than a necessity for us, an inescapable 'must'... all life created by God exists in communal order and works toward community." -- Eberhard Arnold