Thursday, January 31, 2008

forgot to tell you about this documentary....i am hoping to see soon!!

okay quickly before adelaide wakes...

congrats mle and fam on their new baby.

so this weekend justin was all set to go to the High School Winter Camp. He was so excited about this chance to hang out with the kiddos, advisors and the new High School director. last night he got a call from his grandma letting him know that his dad is being evicted from his apartment this weekend and she was in a panic. needless to say justin will instead be headed up north to be with his dad and grandma. there are so many ways that this situation could go really really badly. justin has a lot of fear about what could/will happen. please be thinking of us (especially justin). we'll let you know what happens. I'll be staying home with adelaide which will be hard on two fronts. being sole provider for adelaide for the weekend and being far from justin during this rough time. argh!

adelaide has slept better the past two nights. thank goodness. she has been standing for a lot of minutes in a row without holding onto anything. i think she is trying to walk. it is so cute. i can't believe she is already this grown. crazy.

ran into this very cool application...i think it is so neat. check it out.

what do you think about this big rebate we're all getting? i don't know what to think about it. ours will probably go straight to our student loan.

i think i have lots more to say but i hear miss thang. maybe i'll try and post more later. adu

“May you always be blessed with walls for the wind. A Roof for the rain. A warm cup of tea by the fire. Laughter to cheer you. Those you love near you. And all that your heart might disire.” - Irish Blessing

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

interesting stuff....check it.
more later........

“What are your waiting for?” – Lope De Vega

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

"weeping may last for the night, but joy comes with the morning." psalm 30:5

never has this been more true for us than the last 2 days.
argh maybe one day adelaide will sleep again.

Monday, January 28, 2008

now this is something funny!

are you seriously kidding me that these are the words??!!
i'm gonna get you drunk on my lumps?
what the heck??
p.s. if you touch it i'm gonna start some drama.

anyways, the video is hilarious.

"Fat people are harder to kidnap."---some bumper sticker

Saturday, January 26, 2008

the morning after a couple of days of heavy rain is the best time to get outside. today was just beautiful. We decided to take a small hike at a local park. it was awesome and smelled just great! After that we decided to go eat outside at The Commons in Calabasas. They have this awesome pond type thingy with birds, turtles, fish, ducks....really cool. Anyways Adelaide had a great time and was very intersted in all the animals she even kept saying FSSH FSSH (fish) and BA (bird) was so cool. we also saw howie mandel there.

tonight we will attempt to line dance with some friends. there are lessons involved thankfully. should be a real kick (get it??!!!).

justin and i are excited because we made the decision to go back and see our counselor for a much needed tune-up. Before we got married (not pre-marital counseling or anything like that) we went to see Lynne for about 3 or 4 months to hash some stuff out which was awesome. Life has been so stressful these past months with everything thats been going on not to mention having adelaide join the fam. we thought it would serve us well to go and check in. It is always helpful to have a
3rd party just sit with us and listen and teach us. we're excited. finanically God is gonna have to rain the money down from the sky BUT we figure He will.....He always does.

enjoy the weekend.

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" - Anonymous

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

i've decided to return the dress :(
thanks for the help though.

p.s. anyone know why i can't see my comments?

“Do what you can, where you are, with what you have!” – Teddy Roosevelt

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

heath ledger is dead, and that makes me sad. i thought he was a great actor. sadness and hopelessness is in all of us right? fame and money doesn't change that...maybe it makes it worse.

so, i know this is probably really cheesy but i really need some advice.
a couple weeks back i bought a dress that i really like. it is a lighter jean material about knee length with short sleeves. the cut of the dress is very sack like. not form fitting or shaped just kinda hangs like a sack....does that make sense? anyways, when i tried it on i took note to myself...okay this isn't the most form flattering dress ever but i really like it and who cares that i kinda look a bit fatter than i am.
okay bring it home try it on and showed it to justin. Justin likes the dress but also mentioned that it isn't really shaped and just kinda hangs. something i already knew but kinda decided oh well on. but now, a couple days later i am like well...i do look kinda way fatter than normal wearing the dress, although i still like it a lot.
i don't know maybe i keep it as a pregnancy dress or something.
i don't know..........what do you guys think i should do?
honestly......would you wear it?
i know its hard to make a judgement without seeing the dress.
oh well, just thought i would throw it out there.

what to do, what to do.

"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them." ---Thomas Merton

Sunday, January 20, 2008

for a long time justin and i used Dr. Bronners Soap in the shower. Then when we really started to feel the pinch of living on one budget we began using this Oatmeal and Honey Soap from Trader Joes which is a little bit cheaper. With both of these soaps i noticed that it never masked my natural scent (you know, what folks call B.O.) which i really liked about them. i don't think i have an offensive smell just a nice natural human smell. Anyways, now we have some Dove soap and that soap makes you smell like flowers, freshness (whatever that smells like), and rain. Seriously they like wipe out the natural smell really quickly. Now, I know most people like that....but i just don't.

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
---Martin Luther King Jr.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

justin is running out real quickly to get us some ice cream from Baskin Robbins before we watch Finding Neverland (which we got for christmas from my sister).

the last couple days have been rough for adelaide. she has been barfing at night. Last night she threw up around 1am and then again around 2am. She also barfed on Wednesday evening...twice. We're not sure if she has a bug or its something shes eating. Watching a baby throw up is a VERY painstaking sight. they just look so helpless and confused and in need. it is really terrible. so needless to say i have been so worried that she is going to dehydrate and die (no seriously...dehydrate and die). it is really awful the sense of panic that has entered my life since she got here. i am not the calm zen mother that i thought i would be when it comes to feeling helpless. hopefully this will pass soon and she'll be rockin' this hood hard core.

i spend alot of time imaging "my home". You know the house that i don't live in but dream about. i think about the kitchen, the bathroom, the yard, the neighbors, where we would go to church. i really wish i didn't think about it so much because i know its a long way off and that is the road we chose in order for me to stay home with adelaide (which was an awesome decision). it also puts me in a complainy mood about my current "home" and i just hate that when there are so many things to be thankful for.

justin and i seem to have been arguing a bit lately...which i hate. actually i would call it fighting not so much arguing. i notice the flare up when we are struggling with lack of sleep but what it weird is it comes on like a flash flood. we're good...we're good....we're good and then BAM a huge fight. anyways, i hate it. so does he i am sure.

well i should wrap this up i guess. justin has Monday off and i am excited he'll be here for 3 days! wish we had known sooner so we could have planned a more exciting weekend (we were looking for last minute tickets to seattle but alas they were too expensive ;)).

grace and peace.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

last night we were able to catch Shane Claibourne speak at Bel Air Pres. I was thankful to be able to go. Basically if you have read the book, he just told stories from the book. His message was "Have Less Live More." He showed a very powerful video clip from his time in Iraq to end his message. It wasn't anything very different from the book. Justin tape recorded it for a co-worker of his. so, i'm sure he'd let you borrow it if you are interested.

so, i am offically signed up to be a deacon at my church. interested, excited, nervous, curious. i'll let you know.

what are the chances of having a woman named Alma Sosa living in my same apartment complex. weird right. i always get her mail.

Justin and I have been excited for the time spent with our neighborhood kids as of late. One night after dinner we went out and played a fun game of tag in the parking lot. Adelaide had the most fun hanging from her dad's chest running away from screaming kids. it was hilarious. last saturday was so beautiful so we were feeding adelaide outside and the kids just came up and hung out with us for like a hour. we came up with some fun ideas the kids seemed into. Maybe an easter egg hunt for Easter and a big BBQ in the summer. We are excited to discover more ways to get to know our neighbors. we should be making the most of the time we are living here.

i thought i had more to say.....

"Life in community is no less than a necessity for us, an inescapable 'must'... all life created by God exists in communal order and works toward community." -- Eberhard Arnold

Sunday, January 13, 2008

quickly before we're out....we watched a really cool film last night....once. i am sure that most of you have seen it, if not...check it out! we really enjoyed it.

"Out of clutter, find simplicity, from discard, find harmony, in the middle of difficulty lies opporunity.” – Albert Einstein

Friday, January 11, 2008

well THIS aughta be interesting.
maybe if we can find a babysitter....we'll go see what mr. claiborne has to say.

“Leap and the net will appear” – Zen Saying

Thursday, January 10, 2008

an old friend-hard times-glad to have found her

p.s. adelaide starting standing not holding onto anything for like 5 seconds today. its pretty cool.

"cancer sucks.-amy souza"

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

home alone tonight. justin had the opportunity to work really late for some double time. good but lonely for me :(

i've been thinking for some time about deacons at my church. for as long as i have been attending my church (9 years) i have never once met my deacon face to face. sometimes i will recieve a birthday card but other than that they remain somewhat of a mystery. i was thinking that if i ever became a deacon i would really try and make it a priority to go to every single one of the families that i cared for and met them in their home and pray for them. i think that would be soooo cool. maybe even bring some goody with me when i came, besides adelaide of course.

we've been chit chatting a bit about baby #2. we feel somewhat ready--which for me means not just yet. I am really hoping to spend next christmas with my family in Minnesota and so I'd like to keep that in mind as we plan ahead a bit. we are very excited for our trip to Scotland in March to visit Justins bro and his family (not to forget the price3) so maybe sometime after that....who knows.

new years resolutions........not really.

I've been shopping around for 2 pretty specific things these days. i think i mentioned the brown boot search. the other item is a mexican folk art shower curtain or something of that nature. so far......nothing good.

what can you buy these days for under a $1?

“Do not go where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail…” - Emerson

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

2 places to live, 5 jobs between us, 5 cars, 1 church, 3 new pairs of vans shoes (for justin of course-one per year), much bearing with, loads of laughs, lots of friends, many i'm sorrys, 1 baby.....seems like a lot for only 3 years.

Here's to what the next 3 will bring.............

p.s. happy 1st birthday kiley lofgren.

--the quotes for the day are the 3 scriptures that we used in our wedding. 2 were read and one was on the front of our program thingy--

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders." 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12

"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." Colossians 3:12-17

"Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,like a mighty flame.
Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away.
If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love,
it would be utterly scorned." Song of Solomon 8:6-7

Sunday, January 06, 2008

here is a photo from our time in Shaver Lake BEFORE the trip went down hill with illness and stress. just thought i'd throw it out there.

I've been on a mission since christmas trying to find the perfect pair of brown boots. no heal, mid-calf. the trick is not paying hundreds of dollars. i have 2 new fantastic new dresses that would be perfect with a nice pair. so, i just keep looking.

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined.”

Saturday, January 05, 2008

**maybe my last political post ever (could also be the first)**

sitting watching the republicans debate this evening i really realized how much more i like ron paul. when it came to the war discussion he was completely opposite of every single fellow up there--anti the war. in fact, on most topics he has really different stances than the others. i like that. his fellow colleagues really laugh him off and mock him like a clown, which actually makes me like him even more.
pretty sure he won't be getting my vote at this point (i think my mind is already set) but i just really feel like he is a breath of fresh air, at least for me.

plus...i think he's so cute.

“Live with intention.
Walk to the edge.
Listen hard.
Practice wellness.
Play with abandon.
Choose with no regret.
Continue to learn.
Appreciate your friends.
Do what you love.
Love as if this is all there is.”
– Mary Anne Radmacher

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

here we are january 2nd, back to normal. justin headed off to work this morning.....booooo!!! our vacation wasn't quite what we had wanted but hey at least we got a few days at the end to hang out as a family.

starting next thursday evening after adelaide is in bed i will be taking my first belly dancing class. i am excited and a bit nervous at the prospect but overall i think it will be an experience to remember and who knows i may just love it. i am hoping to meet some new friends through this venture.

i am reading a book called Unconditional Parenting right now (thanks to mle) and i am enjoying it. i look forward to really working some of these thoughts into our own parenting. its a book that i will need to read over and over though since i feel it is so dense. i was also excited about possible once we've really personalized it maybe teaching a class at church on it....who knows.

thats it for now.
gotta get a shower before little lady wakes up.

"may your life be like a wildflower, growing freely in the beauty and joy of each day." Native American Proverb

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

i forgot to post one more thing.
for christmas adelaide got a nice onesie from this website from her uncle adam.
i like the website and thought i'd pass it along.
good idea for baby shower gifts and what not!

Good morning and happy new year!
honestly we were glad to see 2007 end. it was really the first time we were glad to see a year end. 2007 was a rough year for the souza family. the joy was becoming 3.
we're excited for the road ahead.

quote of the day:
“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” – Leo Buscaglia