Wednesday, April 30, 2008

tonight i thought of a cool idea for a website.
it is probably already out there.
but anyways...its a cooking/food website where you can plug in the items you have (onion, bread, turnips, yuca....) in your fridge or whateves and then it brings up receipes that you can use.

cool idea right.
don't steal it if it doesn't exist.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008





oh man is she cute or what!!!

Go to Ben and Jerry's today and get a FREE cone!!!

Karen and I with babies in tow are headed to the Skirball Center to check out the Noah's Ark Exhibit. I am excited for this adventure.

adelaide hid my keys somewhere and we really can't seem to find them.
so, i've been borrowing justins but i am thinking i am going to need to make copies.

Justins brother nicks dog has been having puppies this morning. we got the call at 6am that she has already had 2. we are headed up there memorial day weekend and i can't wait to see them. i think it will be fun for adelaide as well.

oh and by the way...tonight on american idol..........NEIL DIAMOND songs! Ah...souza heaven.

P.S. adelaide looks longer this morning...so weird.
P.S.S this is a cool blog.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Sunday, April 27, 2008

todays post on Shutter Sisters is a good one.
Check it out.

Are you doing what’s important? Are you living your best life? Are you spending time on what matters most?

Saturday, April 26, 2008

as you can see i haven't been super motivated in the blogging area as of late.
i have thought numerous times oh man i should blog about that but never actually came and sat at the computer.

Justin is out playing some Lazer Tag (totally jealous!) with the high schoolers and i am hanging with adelaide (well, she is sleeping right now).

Last night Justin and I rearranged our living room. It is soooo great. Amazing how just some small changes can really make you feel better about a space. We love the change.

In bigger news, i bought an awesome tank-top from American Eagle this morning. I got a gift card for my birthday that i hadn't used. It's very lovely and i am excited to wear it...maybe tomorrow for church.

The recent issue of mothering magazine is a good one. I just really like the article on Ani Difranco as well as the article on raising girls in this culture. Its a discussion Justin and I have a lot. How do we raise Adelaide in this nasty saturated culture we live in.

I only babysat once last week and I hate that. I mean actually what i hate is not seeing my friend karen more often. the week goes by faster and so does the day when we can spend the day together with our kids. I think this week we may try and go see the Noah's Ark thingy at the Skirball Center.

Um, hmmmmmm........what else.

Justin has been very busy at work this last week. and next weekend he will be away for work. these times make me sad for him and adelaide. i know he misses her and i can see how she misses him. but today was great. they went on a hike together and spent alot of the morning with one another. so good.

this evening we have plans to have some friends over for dinner and then play Settlers of Catan. They came last weekend as well and we had a great time. Emily brought these FANTASTIC brownie cookies! They were delicious. Oh man, i just took a sneek peak and saw what she is bringing tonight!!! YIPEE!!

enjoy your weekends and each other my friends.

"if the desire to write is not accompanied by actual writting then the desire is not to write." --Hugh Prather (i love love love this quote so much...i am glad to finally share it)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

very sad we are not going to be able to hit this up this weekend...we were too late!!

cool website.
cool band.
cool website #2
HOPEREVO goes to Rwanada....CHECK IT!
cool/funny website #3

oh and a cool baby was born to my friend heather...oliver mark...delicious!

Thoreau: "Many go fishing all their lives without knowing that it is not fish they are after."

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

i try not to worry to much about money.
and for the most part i do an okay job.
living on one salary has been a challenge for sure but at the same time kind of exciting.
the last couple months it's been less than--more frustrating.
i just feel behind all the time.
i feel like there is no movement forward.
i am discouraged.

justin loves his job and i am sooooo glad about that. so, we are not ready to just pick up and move to another more affordable state/location. his job is moving to encino in may, which gives us an opportunity to move as well.
a move would be a welcome thing for the most part.
we'd love a larger space, a quieter space, a space closer to friends, a space that could hold more that 4 folks at a time. Now, i realize all of these things are wants and we may just have to stay where we are at because it's affordable for us. BUT it STINKS!
i mean, we are still inching away at our debt. Before Adelaide was born we were rocking it and now we are at a stand still. that is so frustrating. and then not to mention the fact that living in a large space just doesn't seem realistic--which totally stinks.
i've been struggling with all this as i scroll through the craiglist pages and look at apartment after apartment. we may never own a house, and really i am semi okay with that....i just want a larger space.

well, hey at least i have a space. and i have a lovely community and kids that i live with. at least justin has a job and gets paid. at least we make just enough to pay our bills. i should be thankful that we eat a wonderful dinner every night and on sundays get to go out and eat with our friends. i have lots to be thankful for and realize that i am as rich as i need to be. honestly sometimes i just get tierd of keeping perspective (doesn't that sound whiny--oh well, i'm being whiny).
Alright enough...maybe i'll go read my Compassion International Magazine now.

“Ask what makes you come alive and do that. Because what the world needs are people who have come alive.” ~Howard Thurman

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Here is a very cool series of photographs by Peter Menzel on what different families all over the world eat/spend in one week on food....

Germany $500


North Carolina $341.98



Japan $317.25


Great Britian #253


Mexico $189.09



China $155.06


Poland $151


Egypt $68.53


Mongolia $40


Equador $31.55


Butan $5


Chad $1.23

Monday, April 14, 2008

we're home.
the retreat was beyond amazingly amazing.
i had a great time.

heather has not had her baby yet and its really all i can think about.
so sorry i am of no blogging good.

enjoy today.

Friday, April 11, 2008

off to the beach soon.
spending a nice quiet weekend with 20 other adults and 2 other kiddos!
hahaha........should be HILARIOUS!!!
i am actually really looking forward to it.
i also really hope we can work in a game of Mission Impossible on night.

tried to get Radiohead tickets via KROQ's presale....it was a no go.
so, now we must leave it up to someone else whilest we are away.

heather......please don't have a baby while i am away.
but if you must....you must.

cheerio peeps.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

some quick thoughts before my day takes my mind over.
here are some future love notes. and just plain comments i have.

LIGHTEN UP FOLKS!
don't be so dang judgemental.
mind your business sometimes.
I hate arrogance.
YOU DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING! (even though you think you do)
you higher than thou attitude is VERY unbecoming.
judging peoples hearts/motives is a dangerous place to go...i'd be careful.

there, i said my piece for the day.
ARGH!

oh and by the way........HAPPY LOVE THURSDAY

Wednesday, April 09, 2008





some pictures from the wedding this past weekend.

2 things about adelaide that are awesome.

1) she cleans my kitchen floor with wipes
2) she likes to put my underwear on her head/around her neck and walk around the house.

justin woke up this morning saying, "i had a dream last night that our DSL was working. i am going to check it out." and what do you know WHA LA! It wasn't supposed to be working until Monday.
the long story is we switched our phone provider to vonage which uses the internet BUT when they disconnected our old service to put vonage in they also let go of our internet provider. so, there you have it. but i think we're up and running and i am soooooo glad. same phone number and everything.

i like the internet. its very helpful.
it's hard to not have it.

we're gearing up for the young married and engaged couples retreat this weekend.
what is really exciting about this is there is about 4 or 5 couples going that i don't really know. its gonna be so cool to get to know new people. i like that. plus, beach house in oxnard on the beach...can't beat it i don't think.

okay, will post more later probably.
just wanted to let you know were up and running again.

Monday, April 07, 2008

no internet.
no phone in the souza house for the next week.
Long story no time.

Call cell if you need us.

ADU.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

have you ever written or recieved an anonymous letter?

i have written tons of anonymous notes. just simple notes of encouragment sent through the mail or whatever that really didn't need to have my name on it.

a letter.......i remember in the 5th or 6th grade i got a hate letter with no name on it. but i think i new who did it.
ALSO..once i got a card with cash in it from.....no one. but i knew who did it from the handwriting.

i am trying to remember if i have ever written an anonymous letter TO someone. i don't think i have. unless it was a love note to some guy BUT that doesn't make sense right? if i was trying to tell him i liked him...why leave the name off?
um......hmmm.....i think i might have but its not coming to me...i'll try and keep thinking on this one.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008












this is adelaide doing the TODAY fist.

i've been trying to get back into the swing of things since our return from Scotland.
its been hard.
i've learned that i am most organized when i have a million things going on.
BUT at some point i just get tired and then BLAH happens.

justins office will be moving to encino come may.
so, we are thinking of maybe moving a bit closer to that office.
we've been wanting to move for quite awhile now BUT it just hasn't really felt right.
currently, it still doesn't feel right.
maybe come may it will.

adelaide is one.
adelaide is one.
i can't really believe it.
i haven't really had time to process it either.
it really is very cool how much she has changed in one year. from a little blobber to a walking, talking adorable young toddler. are they toddlers when they are one? i don't know. anyways, its been quite a year for all of us. i feel like i am becoming a better parent, well maybe not better but learning more about adelaide, which makes me a better parent to adelaide.
i have alot of mom friends and i like this. i also like the fact that they run the gammet. very very different view points from all my friends. i think this is great.

we just finished up the movie The DarJeeLing Limited.
i loved this quirky take on family.
i resonated with the brothers in some weird ways.
i feel like in my life there are some things that need burying.

easter was a beautiful day for me this year.
i am thankful for it.

“Life is a gift, given in trust - like a child.” ~~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

justin spent most of the morning teaching adelaide to raise her fist and say Today when he says NEIL DIAMOND!!it's basically totally cool.

"on the boats and on the planes.....they're comin' to AMERICA." --neil diamond