it has been quite a week for me.
i don't know easily annoyed, easily frustrated....blah.
i love Jesus, but man i feel like i am less and less like him everyday.
last night adelaide was running and playing outside with justin and tripped into some bars and split her lip open. there was a lot of blood. justin brought her inside and he was like, stay calm. i was seriously freaked out (it was just a small gash and stopped bleeding pretty quickly). I realized in that moment i am not that person, you know, the one that remains cool, calm and collected in times of trial. i freak. hahahaha...so, yeah.......i know this is the first of many many injuries for our little dare-devil...i better get better at staying calm.
tomorrow evening our friends will come for dinner and then stay with adelaide so i can take justin on a surprise. i think he'll like it alot. i'll tell you later what it is.
may is almost over....
"And what does it feel like?" we asked.
"Well, " she said,
leaning over to us like a secret,
"it feels like a gust of wind
blowing inside your heart.
It feels like bright yellow paint."
~ Monique Duvall, The Persistence of Yellow
Friday, May 30, 2008
Posted by Amy Souza at 8:47 AM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
back from a lovely weekend in reedley.
it was really a great weekend.
nice and relaxing...not to mention 9 lab puppies!
sunday afternoon we had a BBQ and we had a very interesting talk with justins step-grandfather.
he was a chemist at PG&E for like a million years or something(very smart guy)...anyways, he starting talking about oil, nuclear energy, and the current state of affairs and he said, "you know i don't really have to worry about it all since i won't be here much longer but man, if i was you i'd be worried." and then he went on to say, "and for adelaide, I'd be really worried."
this really got justin and i thinking. it was good.
are we prepared to bring more children into this world?
how can we consume less?
what are some changes we can make as a family?
we pat ourselves on the back for all these amazing inventions on ways to make our lives more comfortable and easy and really they are the start of the demise.
anyways, it was good.
we watched the movie Cloverfield and didn't really have stong feelings one way or another. a good thrilling monster movie with some laughs. justins mom lent us No COuntry for old men, so sometime soon, we'll give that a watch
justins office has moved and it still only takes him 30 minutes to get there and back. so, we are thinking we won't be moving from our apt. actually we are thinking of moving to another apt in our current complex. one off of the street so we can actually open our doors and not hear cars, trucks and motorcycles. we'll see.
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thats it for now my loviez.
"feel the fear and do it anyways."
Posted by Amy Souza at 1:26 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
what are some effective ways to publicize an event?
i mentioned a few posts back about an event our church is hosting.
and andrew and i are kinda in charge of getting the word out but i find myself struggling with how to, where to go, yada yada yada.
i think it's gonna be a cool, worth while event and i want people to know about it.
some thoughts i have are mainly that word of mouth is probably in this situation what will work best.
maybe contacting some local churches.
but that seems so inside the box.
i don't know.
i am struggling.
Posted by Amy Souza at 9:49 AM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
went to the zoo today. it was 101 outside.
adelaide had a blast.
we brought her animal book along and pointed out all the animals that we saw to the ones in the book.
she liked it alot.
watched a wonderful documentary last evening called MIND GAMES.
just an astonishing journey of one family.
i am pooped.
Posted by Amy Souza at 7:40 PM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
feels like a long time since i last blogged.
this week has been a great week.
filled with lots of not very oftens.
i met up with 2 friends from college who i haven't seen in 8 years!
it was great.
we met at Urth Cafe and had a great time catching up and people watching.
last evening i met up with a friend who i used to see alot and now don't see her all that often. we met up at Breeze's Cafe.
amd tuesday morning, karen and i went to Marmalade Cafe and had brunch and our pastors wife watching kiley and adelaide. how cool is that!!
What i love about these times is just sitting with people and talking.
sharing what we're learning, where were struggling, laughing and eating.
i love these times.
talking is good.
i always feel like i am a better communicator in person than i am in writting.
i am just not that great of a writer, which is why i am surprised that i've lasted this long as a blogger.
so, its down to the two davids on idol. who will win.........i actually have NO idea!
we haven't voted that much this season...i am not in love with any one contestant so, we just haven't voted. my guess will be david a.
i've been meaning to start reading The Kite Runner. but i haven't been able to get into the groove. i think this week i will start.
i've been struggling through some spiritual thinkings lately. nothing that i am confident enough to share without flubbing up my words but just trying to think things through. i love jesus in a major way. i just get confused about some other stuff. i love church in a major way. but i just get confused about some stuff. muddling along, singing a song...just gotta keep on lovin' people, ya know.
The Office season finale is this evening.................will there be a proposal???? oh i will just DIE! i almost had a heart attack when Jim faked proposed a couple weeks ago. we'll see......
"I am learning to write and speak of my true feelings for myself,
that's how I can let go sooner and love fuller.
It's a mixture of speaking up and speaking in,
reaching out and reaching in."
~ Sabrina Ward Harrison
Posted by Amy Souza at 7:12 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2008
funny story of the evening:
justin was grilling up some hamburgers and hot dogs and he was out on the balcony.
the hamburgers were frozen together so he was using a knife to try and seperate them.
well he was pulling and off flung 2 burgers down to the grassy knoll beneath our balcony. almost hit our neighbors balcony. hahahahaha......this made me really laugh!! anyways, he ran down there picked them up and put them back on the grill.
oh that was so funny to me.
Posted by Amy Souza at 6:42 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
early tomorrow morning i will be off running through garage sales!
the thrill of the hunt.....very excited.
mothers day came early for me with a lovely surprise from Justin.
As we got into the car this morning to go spend time with karen, kiley and victoria.
justin pointed out a surprise.....
it was none other than The Weepies album, say i am you and fantastic eco-friendly Thank You cards.
i couldn't have felt more celebrated.
we're off for the weekend.
Grace and Peace.
"Both candle and the moth crazy around it.
say who I am. Say I am you." -rumi
Posted by Amy Souza at 8:06 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
a quick post while i am thinking of it.
adelaide and i took a trip to The Little Seed this morning and while we were there it got me thinking.
everything in there is VERY expensive and not to mention healthy products in general are more expensive.
i understand the whys but it is very annoying.
i mean when these are the things that our children should be playing with/wearing/drinking from why are they not affordable for all.
it really chaps my hide.
so really now, the only people who can use non contaminated stuff are the ones that can afford it.
Posted by Amy Souza at 2:03 PM
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Night #1 without Justin...DONE.
i spoke with justin this morning and he had a bit of a rough night.
couldn't quite get comfortable and is still trying to fight off this cold.
i hope he is enjoying today at least a little.
today we went to the The Commons and looked at the turtles, fish and birds.
adelaide just loved it.
this evening we'll go over to our friends house for an early dinner and then head back home.
you know...everyone isn't perfect.
actually no one really is.
everyone does things differently. i like that about people. lots to learn that way.
sometimes its hard how folks do things differently.
when it rubs up against "your way."
judgement is very powerful and can be awfully hurtful.
i've just been thinking about that alot lately.
i judge alot (usually in my head the most).
i just wish i could offer everyone around me more grace to be who they are.
i mean, i understand that iron sharpens iron and that growth and movement are part of this journey, the one i signed up for but i want more grace in my life.
i want justin to be showered in the grace that it is okay to think the way he does and go about solving problems the way he does and that i am not always right.
i want my friends/family to know it's okay to be who they are around me.
i desire to be a more flexible person.
that is all for now.
Posted by Amy Souza at 2:05 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
justin has left the building.
he is away this weekend working at the Stagecoach Festival.
i hate being here alone with adelaide even if only for a weekend.
i am sure we will all make it through with flying colors but it still stinks.
this week has been a rough week for me.
just really struggling through some stuff.
i don't know that i'd be able to articulate my thoughts very well.
so, i may just stick to some surface stuff.
haven't been reading any good books lately.
as for childrens books...i love "slowly, slowly, slowly said the sloth." what childrens books do you love?
are you excited to see the movie Son of Rambow? i am very excited about it (although we will need to wait till video). I heard a great review on npr driving home this evening. can't wait.
just a random tidbit.....did you guys know that china has alot to do with what is going on in darfur. I wasn't really aware until this afternoon. very interesting.
i am learning more and more about homeschooling. i don't have any idea where my family will end up on the education end but I am starting our reasearch now. more and more of my close friends are choosing homeschooling for their kiddos. that is interesting. i am very interested in Waldorf Schools, although i can say with confidence we will probably NEVER be able to afford it. Private Schools, Public Schools....who knows. But there sure is a lot to think about.
Well, i am going to begin my weekend home alone.
"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. Do the thing you think you cannot do." -- Eleanor Roosevelt
Posted by Amy Souza at 8:03 PM