Sunday, October 25, 2009

all i know is that i feel like i am walking through the storm of my life.
"stuff" can really only be/stay buried for so long until.........KABOOM.
what lays beneath the surface for me is coming out and hurting me and those around me.
i suppose the fact that it is here glaring me in the face means its time to deal with it.

this anger is burning me.
there is only a thin layer keeping this rage at bay.

Lord have mercy on me, sinner that i am.

Monday, October 19, 2009

adelaide has figured out she can get out of her big girl bed at night!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!
i mean she doesn't do it in the middle of the night but when we put her to bed if she isn't the perfect tierd...up and down, up and down we go. she has been sleeping in this bed i think for like 2/3 months or something and she just figured it out.

tonight i made homemade corn dogs. they were good.
we bought hot dogs from trader joes and followed THIS reciepe. they were a hit! we had sweet potato fries and green salad with it. overall a great meal.

i just realized my brain hurts.....adios.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


8-8-08 at 8:08pm


one year later 9-9-09

we're here because.
we're here because.
we're here because.

Friday, October 09, 2009

i just wish i lived close to woods.
i'd like to have a bonfire.
why is it so difficult to find a spot to have a bonfire in all of southern california.
i'd also like to have a nice big meal with my friends in the woods next to the bonfire.
i saw photos from a friends equinox gathering and boy it made me want to live close to woods.

its october. i love october.
i have already made 2 new soups....potato and onion soup and broccoli soup. both were great!

i've been thinking alot lately about our current living arrangements. i'd like to blog further about them but for now i am just super thankful. we are starting our second year living here at "the mouth" as we like to sometimes call it. starting our second year of living with john and val. and man, in my estimation it is going quite well (they could tell you different...). we had a discussion recently about what we would have regretted NOT doing while we lived together if/when we moved out. so hopefully we can be making sure we do some of those things. i have also enjoyed how open our home has felt. we have friends over quite a bit and i love it. anyhow...just feeling thankful.

next weekend we will be pumpkin patching with grandma at Lombardi Ranch. i love the train ride there...so does adelaide! i am looking forward to this.

well...until next time.
peace.